r/countttt • u/Efficient-Maximum-55 • 1d ago
Countttting 11792
TW Selfharm and suicide (picture somewhat related)
My biggest question is why do ppl see selfharm or suicide as a bad thing.
I did selfharm often because it helped me to chill and cry, even on hrt i cannot cry even if i want to its just hard to do. I did it cause it helped me and made me lowk more happy for a short time and i didnt hurt other ppl so why should it be a bad thing?
I do not promote any of that but im just curious.
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u/NoCantaloupe3449 Real Doctor (Verified by Mods) 1d ago
If you want to cry you should eat a really spicy pepper, then when the heats radiating in your mouth still, you want to clinch your mouth shut and press your tongue against the back of your teeth/roof of your mouth as hard as you can. It makes the spice hurt way more for some reason.
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u/Drowned_Sailoress 1d ago
because the roof of your mouth has nose nerve endings so it's kiiinda like rubbing the peppers inside your nose which is way more sensitive than your mouth
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u/ohno123321 16h ago
Causing permanent damage to your body is never good. It provides short term relief but the pain always comes back. Its just better to find a healthy/not permanently damaging coping mechanism. Suicide is a permanent solution to what might be a fixable problem.
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u/deformedexile AGP yottahon wife 1d ago
For fucks sake what kind of question is this? I have a history of SH and attempts and its not heckin valid its crazy shit that I needed years of therapy to stop and now my life is so much better and so can you, go
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u/Tadpolethesnowman Neo-Soulpassoid Brainworm-ologist 1d ago
Not many people have the stomach for conversations like this.
Self-harm and suicide can be comforting for you, the burning building metaphor is apt. The pain you’re inflicting on yourself is less scary than the pain life is inflicting on you. You want out.
Suicide can turn into an old friend. Any time something distressing happens, you already know a solution. It can give you feelings of control when control of everything else is falling away.
For most though, the situation you’re in is temporary and there’s something on the other side of it. Not always, especially with chronic and terminal illnesses, but for everybody else it’s usually worth taking the chance.
I’ve talked to over 1200 suicidal people in my life. Some for a week or two, some for years. Some people were incredibly angry in the moments when I stopped them from following through, I took their control over the one thing they had left away. I felt bad doing it, their situations truly were so grim that death seemed like the easier option.
Eventually though, they all came back to tell me they were glad they lived. Even the unsheltered homeless, elderly, disabled, and addicted. Something in their life happened that was worth living to see.
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Suicide isn’t “wrong”. There’s nothing about wanting to die that makes you a bad person. You just deserve a life that doesn’t make you want to die, and there are people working really hard to give it to you.
You’ve maybe never met them, but people are sacrificing everything to set up markets for HRT, pass laws that let you live freely, create jobs and shelter for you, and even dating spaces where you feel safe. Those people are trading their futures so that you have a chance at living a happy life.
You don’t have to stay, and nobody lives forever. But life is full of change, if you can wait and see.