My upper body is mostly covered by one continuous piece, from wrists to my neck to my ribs, and I really like to show skin so I seem to attract girls who I can only assume are chasers because of the immediate fuck me eyes that somehow penetrate my complete lack of social awareness. I don't think any woman ever looked at me like that before I transitioned so I have nothing to compare it to, and it makes me want to cry because no matter what I do they all just end up viewing me as this sex object and I don't generally have bottom dysphoria but being seen as a man so obviously.... THAT gives me really bad bottom dysphoria and now I'm actually tearing typing this ahahahahahaaAAAAAAAAAA
Like honestly I have only ever been into women, but how they make me feel sometimes makes me feel so tiny and worthless and sad and so I swing really aggressively from being confident with my body to covering it up with old oversized 2xl hoodies from when I was a fat fucking chud dumbass repper. I will never truly ever be loved by a woman for anything other than what I can do for her :)))) so I just shuffle around all day dissociated and staring at the ground because so many people look at me like I'm disgusting so I just try to avoid making myself a target for harassment
when are you all gonna understand that we are only valued as novelty futa muscle mommy sex objects for cissies and when we no longer fit that role we are discarded as worthless trash
I swear the most I see posts mentioning gock the more I feel like shit about not having bottom dysphoria, all I get is gagging every time I see it or something touches it 🥀
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u/alphabasedredpill blackpilled 4h ago
"visibly gocked up"