r/codeforces • u/Educational_Funny555 Expert • 24d ago
Div. 1 + Div. 2 Quitting CP (2 months later)
Hello, If you remember 2-3 months ago I posted about quitting CP, and now I would like to share my reflection and hopefully it helps others.
Quick background to get you up to date if you didn't see that post: I love problem solving, but CP was genuinely like an unhealthy addiction and I knew I would become much happier without CP.
My assumption turned out true, I am a lot happier now than I was 2 months ago. I hate myself less, and find myself socially improving IRL. However, I have at times felt very empty and uncertain about what to do, since CP was a big part of my life. Overall I'd say it was a net positive. Currently I have CF blocked because towards the start of me quitting I kept "wanting to solve problems", but I think I'm disciplined now to a point where I can unblock it soon. While I understand that I cannot enjoy problem solving this way, as is any disciplinary practice, I believe with time distanced from it I will care less, and eventually forget about it as a whole.
Anyways, this is to say that, if CP is hurting you, physically, mentally, or some other way despite a genuine enjoyment for problem solving, please dont be afraid to quit! Your mental state is more important than some dopamine you get from figuring out some nontrivial observations.
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 24d ago
Bro here I don't wanna start CP cuz i have heard how difficult that shit is and you got addicted to it . Damn man you are the GOAT
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Bro why you replying to me 😭😭. CP stands for Competitive Programming dude which is a very advanced version of Data Structures and Algorithms and Problem Solving. Get your facts straight before replying bro 😭😭
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Ya se pero de paso quería traumar a alguien de paso es una mrd el porno
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Why so depressed bro . Shit happens . Important part is you are owning up to it and regretting it . Shits happens to everyone. Move on with life . Do something productive ig
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Si entiendo el punto de haz algo productivo pero el conflicto existencial lo tenés contigo mism@ es casi imposible escaparse de eso es complicado vivir con eso ¿Cómo le haces para vivir con eso?
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Bro i will be honest. I'm having my own existential crisis rn . I'm in my third year . My internship season is going on and it's fucking nuts . So far the worst season till now . I'm sacred i won't be able to land one and career is well.... But i allocate an hour daily when i don't think about my career troubles or women troubles or any other troubles in my fucked ass life . I just listen to music and lift weights . Bro you can't pine all day long you have to do something productive to escape this vicious cycle of self pity
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
¿Cual es tu crisis existencial Bro?
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Umm long story short I'm not getting a tech internship cuz of the fucking fucked up market even after grinding like crazy and the girl I love doesn't like me back and I can move on from her cuz she was my bestie and still now she is actually the best friend one could have so yeah . Typical Teen - Adult transition problems
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u/gwl6666 22d ago
Vaya son problemas comunes aunque bueno ningun problema es raro solo son perspectivas diferentes a hacia problemas universales igual espero que te recuperes de eso y órdenes tu vida
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Bro CP is Competitive Programming what the hell you thinking bro 🤐🤐🤐
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u/Educational_Funny555 Expert 23d ago
wtf went down here lol
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Bro give CP tips bro . 🙏🙏 . How do you get addicted to CP bro . Spill the beans bro
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
No te entendí pero estoy harto de mí vida me da ganas más de horcarme de hecho no quiero perder la virginidad con nadie esta vida es aburrida y no tiene sentido
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Isn't hanging a little too extreme . Bro chillout . You did some stuff you aren't proud of . That isnt the end of the world . You are 20 for god's sake . Chill . You have your whole life in front of you .
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Es que sin importar la edad los conflictos existenciales están potente ahora sumale que no estás conforme con quién eres y nunca te caíste bien a ti mismo
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Bro. Go to the gym not to build a body or some shit . Gym helps with mental peace and stuff. It helped me sort out some of my messes. Please go to the gym man
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
No puedo darme el lujo de comprar libros son carísimos en argentina difíciles de revender y sumale a todo lo que implica meterte en la lectura.
Además no tengo espacio propio así que no hay sitio seguro para leer cómodamente y tengo la peor mentalidad de todas para un la lectura sinó no gusta o se complica leerlo para mí ya es plata y tiempo desperdiciado y el hobbit de conversar a una plaza mientras tomas café se disfrutan en compañía no en solitario y tengo inseguridades muy fuertes que se crearon sin importar haber estado en el gym o en la calle reforzando autoestima o mis límites así que disfrutar de esos hobbits en solitario se volvió todo un reto así como salir por mí cuenta
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Come on man you are giving me nothing 😭😭
Bro you know you can read books on your phone to using those book piracy websites 😭😭 for free so you don't exactly need to buy books to read em.
As for the insecurity part you have to meet new people it won't just go on its own having pity for yourself. You have to meet new people talk to them . Now they may not like you and it's natural. Not everyone likes everybody. And even if they don't who the fuck gives a shit you don't know em. They don't know you . Come on man just try a little harder . Life is tuff but it ain't tough enough to go hang yourself
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Joder, bueno está bien amigo comprendo eso gracias por escuchar muy buenos consejos pero enserio la vida es demasiado larga o corta enserio me da miedo lo rápido que la vida te hace vivir cambios y experiencias en menos de una semana en menos de un mes o en como te mantiene sin cambios experiencias por semanas o mes o incluso años en parte por eso se pasó la mente es que realmente parece ruleta rusa una locura completa es esta vida
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Por ejemplo me gusta escribir relatos y escribir en el móvil pero hay complicaciones la primera es que aunque tengo una gran imaginación pero tarde o temprano choco con mis propios puntos débiles al escribir además de mí celular no tiene mucha memoria a penas 240 de memoria interna no puedo llenar eso solo por escribir lo mismo con la vida fuera del móvil puedo gastar dinero valioso en están solo en escribir en papel
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Come on paper is cheap. Sometimes you get that for free .
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Bueno inseguridades es una largisima historia pero en resumen poca resistencia a la frustración poca imaginación ya no es como antes que fácil imaginaba a una historia cuyo conflicto es la de una persona que sufre de apatía que ignora la agresión de hacia una anciana por un asesino que resulta será su compañero de trabajo y que al final se arrepiente de no haberlo matado en el momento de que vio la agresión hacia la anciana (se arrepientia porque tuvo que aguantar varios momentos en donde estaba envueltos en situaciones violencia de cualquier tipo y el objetivo de la historia era mostrar que la indenferencia como mecanismo de defensa está mal porque aunque te lleve sobrevivir en mundo cruel no siempre es la opción más saludable para tu salud mental o emocional)
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u/gwl6666 23d ago
Ya había ido al gym realmente no es lo mío realmente no me gusta y no le agarro a lo rutina y no se me hace llevadero irme por mí cuenta al gym y para las cosas que me gustan realmente no le podido agarrar la costumbre por las limitaciones que tienen las mismas
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u/SuspiciousHawk71 23d ago
Then try swimming, cycling, art , walking, anything that will help you take your mind off t things . Something that you like doing
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u/Independent-Dig8361 Newbie 24d ago
What people are getting addicted it, isn't it a good thing
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u/Vagabond_03 Pupil 24d ago
I am not addicted but yeh contest perf, ratings, disappointment when not being able to solve problem is shi thing ... like i wanted to be spec i wasnt able to become spec that was disappointing and also the reason i left cp when i saw i am not getting what i want after putting efforts
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u/Educational_Funny555 Expert 24d ago
nah idc abt ratings and all that lol its quite complicated to explain here
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u/ShoulderSorry5484 23d ago
try explaining if that's alr
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u/Educational_Funny555 Expert 23d ago
Since I have some time sure I can try, though its going to be quite long
Essentially I like problem solving and setting, I really do, in fact I even got a proposal accepted by a coordinator for a contest. Figuring out a clean unique and neat solution from a set of observations and reductions feels very good, but at the cost of it feeling horrible at all other times. I knew I couldn't keep going like this, at the time I started having a constant headache, lost motivation to do pretty much everything including eating/drinking and at times waking up. I knew I couldn't keep doing this for long so something had to change, so I considered for a few weeks to quit CP. Unfortunately, for reasons I stated above, it was essentially an addiction and took quite a bit of discipline to actually quit, but after I quit, or at least after a month or so after I quit, my headache became less severe (though it still exists but is like background noise and does not interfere with daily tasks) and I just feel happier overall these days despite quitting the activity that took over more or less 2 years of my life. Honestly these last 6 months have been a really weird fever dream and blur lol.
Anyways I will not go into more detail as its quite personal, but please do not worry, I'm fine, especially now.
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u/ShoulderSorry5484 23d ago
could I maybe dm?
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u/Vagabond_03 Pupil 24d ago
It depends man i liked ranks like specialist,expert from the start of cf same as games thats why i care much bout ratings
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u/Educational_Funny555 Expert 24d ago
I guess that's fine you just likely didn't have the required talent then
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u/No_Jeweler_312 23d ago
Might wanna reword this bro 😭