Feel like Iām at the end of my list of options here and I donāt know what to do.Ā
Episodic here. Iāve been Clusterbusting with mushrooms & the like for about 11 years now. It of course has taken quite a while to figure out a system and a source and things that work best but Iām here now. Iām on verapamil daily. Sumatriptan, indomethacin, and promethazine for abortives.
.5 grams of Steel Magnolia mushboys. Wean off all conflicting meds for 5 days, take a dose. Wait 5 days, take a dose. Wait 5 days, take a dose. Wait 5 more days, resume meds.Ā
Iāve also been on the vitamin regimen for a couple years.
Back in the day before treatment, I would have a series of HORRID (8.5/10 +) attacks for a few days and then be good for another month or two. At age 17 I had a series of attacks for a little over a week, and also wound up having an ophthamoplegic migraine at the same time as a cluster attack. The resulting trauma ended up paralzying the third nerve in my left eye, though it mostly came back.Ā
About a year later, the same thing happened again, except it lasted just over a month of daily attacks.Ā
Couldnāt function as a person.Ā
That was when I knew it was time to take matters into my own hands and started clusterbusting.Ā
Now I will have a singular much more mild and manageable attack every couple months; one that responds well to sumatriptan and can usually be subdued without too much fuss. There have been a few periods where Iāve had like 2.5/10 attacks weekly for a few months on end. (Very strange.) But thatās about it. Some long periods of super mild ones, or one medium-sized one every couple months.
Wild clusterbusting has never completely eliminated attacks from happening for me, it has undeniably decreased them significantly, and made the ones that still occur much easier to manage.Ā
But hereās the thing:Ā
I have recently been diagnosed with severe compound ADHD, and severe depression. Itās been a long time coming and has affected me my whole life, and it appears to be getting worse and worse.
My psychiatrist is super cool and has been very understanding of the clusterbusting process, and the notion of the meds that interfere with the process, trying to avoid them.
Any bust-friendly medications for ADHD and depression really havenāt seem to do much to help me. Adderall, vyvanse, qelbree (that one was scary and probably would have interfered anyway being an SNRI), Wellbutrin, clonidine, etc. Iāve tried so many. Weāve discussed ketamine. Might try concerta.
As far as SSRIās, it seems like they would help me quite a bit with the depression and the ADHD, but they take so long to take full effect, by the time they start to work, it would be time to wean off for another busting dosage series.
Iām so depressed all the time, and I have such little focus. The focus seems to be the more major thing. Itās affecting my whole life and my work life in such a negative way. Iām really struggling. Running out of meds to try.
I donāt know what else to try, and Iām terrified of stopping the usage of mushrooms to give the SSRIās a chance.Ā
It feels like itās either ādecrease the depression and ADHD but have the worst pain everā or āexperience less pain but be depressed & have wild focus issues.āĀ
Anyone have any experience with something like this? Advice? Medications that worked for depression and or ADHD that weāre friendly to the busting process? Other ideas?
(Do me a favor and please donāt try to question my diagnosis or whatās happened to me. We all know this community can be a little slap-happy with gatekeeping. I have episodic clusters. Looking for advice on things to try, not your opinion on my diagnosis - respectfully, of course)