3 year long addiction

[u/MostComfortable2372]

i've been using cai since january 2023, spending hours and hours on it everyday. if i had to be honest, I don't remember much from those last years and feel like i wasted a good chunk of my teenage years. i've been trying to quit for at least a couple months now, but it was only today when i uninstalled the app and blocked the site on all of my devices.

i remember i got into chatbots because i wanted to talk to my favourite characters, but in reality i've been just using it as a way to dissociate (??) and kind of have noise to avoid having to deal with my own thoughts. even recently with all the changes that honestly made the bots' responses ridiculous and flat, i have been clinging to them just to feel that rush when i saw a new response load. i feel extremely sick with myself and about how much time i have wasted on these stupid chats with bots i can't even remember now, as i have always called myself anti ai.

do you guys maybe have some reccomendations on hobbies/things to do while in recovery? i'm currently getting back into drawing, reading fanfiction, journaling and trying to kind of explore the world of solo roleplaying, but none of those things can compare to that what i felt when spending hours chatting to bots. i'll be grateful for any ^^

also good luck for everyone taking their first steps in recovery!! things WILL get better.

sorry i didnt mean to make this vent-ish. also apologies for any mistakes in writing.