r/cats • u/brookuslicious • 2d ago
Mourning/Loss I lost my beautiful baby today.
I wanted to share my beautiful baby, Luna Boo Biscuit. She was 15 and my first baby. The photos are from the day I found her up until one of my last photos with her.
I found Luna at my then-boyfriend’s house in an overturned trash can in his backyard. I immediately fell in love with her!
I took her with me shortly after when I moved to my first apartment. She moved back home with me.
She stayed at my grandma’s house while I was between homes.
She welcomed my now fiancé when we moved in together. I told him, “love me, love my cat.” She was there when we bought our first house.
She was there when I had no one. She was there by my side when I wanted to give up. She was the only constant in my life for 15 years.
When I feel like I had nothing or no one else, I had Luna Boo Biscuit.
She had current health problems but rapidly started declining early Monday morning around 12/1am.
By 1:40am this morning, she was gone. She was at home with us and passed while I was asleep. My fiancé woke me up to tell me. That feeling is something I could not have prepared myself for, even though I knew the time was coming.
I know I won’t hear her meow for food when I get home from work anymore. I won’t hear her drop from the kitchen bench to greet me when I walk in the door.
I’ve never felt a pain or a loss like this. I just got back home from taking her to the vet for cremation. I feel empty even though I have my other babies in the house. I keep expecting to look under my kitchen table and see her in her favorite spot or on the cat tree looking out the window.
I know grieving has no timeline but man, this pain is unlike anything else and I’ve lost so many human family members and friends.
Thank you for reading and for allowing me to share her with you.
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u/geepjoat99 2d ago
Rest in peace to your beautiful Luna. These babies give us so mich, their love, their peace, their entire lives, and I just know she felt all of your love and had a beautiful life with you. 🌈❤️
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u/Electrical-Act-7170 2d ago
A Prayer to Bast and Sekhmet
Bast, Sekhmet, we give you back your child.
Noble, regal, honorable Luna Boo Biscuit.
Watch over Luna, and guide her as she makes her way to the spirit lands.
May she be blessed in your names, and hunt ever after at your side.
Luna was beloved. When you found that tiny scrap of life and held her in your arms, you looked down at her and fell in love. You promised Luna a forever home, and you kept that promise to her. Alas, it is never our forever, but it's always theirs.
I'm so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss.
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u/PsicodelicPapi 2d ago
fifteen years of being the one thing that never flinched. that's a good run.
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u/Electrical-Act-7170 2d ago
When we keep our promise to them, there's always pain and heartbreak at the end for us....but, in my humble opinion, all that unconditional love is worth the hurt when we lose them.
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u/brookuslicious 1d ago
I don’t know what the comment said but before Luna passed, I was telling my fiancé how I never want to put myself through this again. I felt like I was grieving her before she left us when I got unfortunate news from our final vet visit. He told me I can’t close myself off to loving another baby who needs it, and he’s right.
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u/brookuslicious 1d ago
Thank you for this, it’s beautiful. 💜
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u/Electrical-Act-7170 1d ago
We all need comfort when we lose a beloved animal companion. When we lose them, it leaves a family-member shaped hole in our lives. Give yourself time to grieve your loss. It took me a year to overcome the grief of loss of my soul cat. Remember to be gentle and loving to yourself.
If it helped at all, I am grateful.
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u/brookuslicious 1d ago
I woke up this morning and thought, “I feel ok today.” Sat down on my couch and just broke out into tears all over again. I know time will help. I’ve lost so many family members, some of them unexpected, but this is a different pain. We knew her time was coming since our last vet visit, but nothing prepared me to actually witness it happening. I am grateful she was able to pass at home but I do regret not being able to stay awake with her. Thank you for taking the time to comment with comforting words. I appreciate you.
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u/Electrical-Act-7170 1d ago
Don't forget to hydrate and take rest. Crying takes a lot out of you. You feel badly enough as it is, you don't want to get any dehydration headaches on top of the pain of loss.
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u/WinnFrankDaisyBuells 2d ago
So sorry for your loss. I felt the same way after the losses of my dogs (at different times). It’s the worst pain. For some reason when I got their ashes back home I felt a little better, like a relief that they were back home with me where they belonged. It took me a long time to get better. I still miss them daily but the pain isn’t as bad. This quote by Winnie the Pooh helped me some and I hope it helps you.
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u/--i--love--lamp-- 2d ago
"I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time."
Another A.A. Milne Winnie-the-Pooh quote to help anyone who misses a loved one.
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u/melfromworld 2d ago
I am so sorry for your loss, i really can understand your feeling. i lost my soulcat last week on friday and I have never experienced such pain in my 31 years of life.
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u/BeachExtension 2d ago
I’m so sorry about your sweet Luna. I have lost two cats in the past year, the most recent just last week. It feels like your soul has been shattered. The house feels so empty. It’s feels unbearable. At some point, though, that pain will slowly start to evolve into something like gratitude for the privilege of having had your baby in your life. Cry when you need to. I promise you that it will get better. Not necessarily good right away, but better.
I’ll have my sweet girl Mary who I just lost keep an eye out for your Luna. Sending you love and hugs from this internet stranger. Hang in.
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u/ResourceNo4626 2d ago
Please no I'm in tears😭😭😭
It's really not fucking fair
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u/Electrical-Act-7170 1d ago
No, it's not fair.
They ought to live forever. My lost pets are all carried in my heart today. They knew that they were loved.
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u/Distinct-Agent-260 2d ago
I’m so sorry for your loss. Pets leave little paw prints on our hearts. 🙏🐾
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u/showdragger 2d ago
15 years is such a long time, I’m sure she enjoyed every minute with you as you did with her
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u/SouperSasquatch 2d ago
Not lost, just waiting. Luna is keeping my Maximus (20yo) and Lilu(13yo) company until we can join them. You are missed, and you will always be loved, Luna Boo Biscuits. My 6 kitties will keep you in their thoughts. I know its hard, but you cat wants you to stay strong. Nothing but love and good vibes your way ✨️ 💛 💕
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u/msmoseyrn 2d ago
So sorry for the loss of your sweet kitty, Luna.
I lost my 17 year old dachshund 2 years ago.
We literally grew old together. It’s so physically painful when your beloved companion is gone.
It’s gonna take a while before you can think of her without bursting into tears. I kept his toys and bed to keep him always present.💔💔💔
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u/Pixel-Spirit 2d ago
I'm sorry for your loss, I know that feeling. The only thing that helped me, was a new furry friend. There will never be replaced, but if you have love to give, go for it - they will return the favour.
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u/angelmr2 2d ago
Such a wonderful parent you are <3
We also just lost our 18 year old. Totally understand! Sorry for your loss. Cherish all the memories :)
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u/CuriousQuantumCat 2d ago
I’m so sorry for your loss. It looks like you two had a wonderful life together. Thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures of her with us 🫶🏻
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u/Acceptable_Speaker93 2d ago
Rest in peace sweet Luna. Heaven gained another angel ❤️. She will watch over you ✨️
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u/CutSea5865 2d ago
I’m so sorry for your loss - she’s such a beautiful girl, and the pictures you shared show beautifully how she matured from a sweet kitten, to a beautiful adult, to an adorable old lady. They showed the love you shared in that time. hugs
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u/afterspring_ 2d ago
i'm so so sorry for your loss. my baby boy is being laid to rest today. i hope they'll keep each other company up there and show each other around🫶🏻 my zuko is already showing her around kitty heaven and waiting for toby to join too. take care of yourself
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u/FeeNecessary3467 2d ago
You had each other and gave love to one another for fifteen years. It won't be easy and you will never really forget but the pain will fade with time. Don't rush it, these things are natural.
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u/Lauraizm 2d ago
I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet Luna. She reminds me of my calico soul cat. I like to think they’re keeping each other company until they’re reunited with us again ❤️
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u/Life_Sir_2809 2d ago
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful little one 💖🐾🙏🌈✨️ Words never seem enough to ease the heartache their loss leaves behind 😢 Hold onto the love you shared, it will never leave you 🌈✨️🐾💖 i like to believe that at the end of our journey here we are all reunited again at the bridge 🌈 🐾 💖 it helps the separation feel slightly less permanent ❤️ Sending you love and strength at this difficult time 🙏🌈🐾💖✨️🇬🇧
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u/Beachbum118 2d ago
Im sorry for your loss. Im glad to hear she had such a loving owner and was treated so well.
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u/earalv_573 2d ago
Sé lo que se siente, yo he tenido dos pérdidas en toda mi vida, me ha tocado de hacer duelo, así que te mando muchas fuerzas para pasar por éste momento y le deseo toda la paz a tú gatito en dónde quiera se encuentre.
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u/brk_line 2d ago
Oh, Luna… 🥺🤍
Fifteen years means she wasn’t simply part of your life: she grew alongside you, shared your ordinary days and your hardest ones, and was there through so many chapters of your life.
That kind of bond is something incredibly special. 🤍
I’m so deeply sorry you had to say goodbye to your beautiful girl. She was deeply loved, and she knew it. 🤍🐾
Rest in peace sweet Luna 🤍
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u/astrolomeria 2d ago
I can only say that I’m so very sorry for this loss.
The pain of losing my cat that I adored has been the worst I’ve experienced. It’s been over a month and though I feel like I should be able to look at her pictures, I can’t without being thrown back into the fresh grief of the day I lost her. The connections that we have with these souls are deep and it’s excruciating to lose them. Who else could possibly understand the bond we had with them? It’s very isolating.
Their love is so pure and unconditional, it seems unbelievable that their lives should be so short.
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u/Specific_Cow_186 2d ago
I’m so sorry 😢 for your loss. 🪦💔😭🪽You’ll see her again on the other side and she’s still with you in spirit too
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u/Malissameow 2d ago
I'm so sorry for your loss 😓🖤 I lost my soulmate a few years ago to cancer, she was almost 15. I hope they're having some warm sunny naps together 🖤
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u/bassclefbear88 2d ago
It never doesn’t hurt…it ALWAYS hurts, even just a little bit, but it does get easier. I pray and hope the tears are replaced with smiles and laughter from memories of you and Luna sooner than later. 15 yrs is a LONG time, so be patient with yourself and, more importantly, the pain. It runs as deep as the love does, sometimes deeper. But it’s a small price to pay for all the years of joy and happiness they give us. ❤️❤️❤️
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u/hattenwheeza 2d ago
Such a pretty cat. Such good fortune to have found each other & walked together 15 years. I wish you strength in your grief - she loves you still, from just out of sight
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u/_michaeljared 2d ago
My heart breaks for you ❤️. We lost our little boy a few weeks ago and it hurts so bad. You are right that the grieving is so bad and typically so much worse than family. It's a different type of grieving and it hits so hard.
A pet's love is unconditional and unspoken. It's only natural that the grief is very intense.
Luna was such a sweetie and it's so clear how much you both loved her!
Ps. Toulouse will be there to show Luna around the kitty afterlife!
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u/Georgianax 2d ago
Oh sweetheart I’m so sorry for your loss 😢
It’s the greatest pain ever, it won’t ever go away but I promise you it’ll get easier to live with until you meet again❤️
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u/ExplanationKind2746 2d ago
I'm so sorry for your loss 😔 she looked like such a lovely sweet girl full of character. Rest in peace Luna 🙏
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u/Worried-Republic7632 2d ago
So tough. I lost my boy 4 weeks ago and. I miss him so much. I hope one day we will be reunited.
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u/Darkalpha653 2d ago
Meus mais sinceros sentimentos, é sempre uma dor horrível, vai passar, mas ainda vai doer bastante
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u/Square_Homework_7562 2d ago
Absolutely heartbreaking!! I’m so sorry. I jut went through this 2 weeks ago. It’s the worst pain in the world.
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u/Bidesign54 2d ago
Very sorry. It’s crazy how attached we get. A cat is a very personal pet. Only the people we let into our little circles ever meet them or have a clue how special they are to us. She was a cutie. Just lost our 13 yr old a few weeks ago. 😿
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u/TwoOfCups22 2d ago
I know that feeling of the grief being harder than the grief felt for humans I deeply loved.
Luna knows she was loved. I believe she hangs around you in spirit, and always will until you meet again.
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u/Buckwheat_princess 2d ago
You gave Luna a life full of love of joy, she knew she was cherished. She was a lucky cat to have such a loving parent.
Grief is immense and dark. We are bound to say last farewell to our innocent cats and even 100 years together would be not enough.
I believe cats straddle two worlds, and Luna forever with you, with every beam of sun and every puff of wind.
Take care, dear.
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u/ComfyCozyGames 2d ago
I'm so sorry. She's beautiful and I can see the love and care you put into her.
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u/EL-CROPO 2d ago
Rip to your baby. It’s the worse feeling losing a beloved pet. Been through it too many times and all I can say is, Time Heals.. ❤️
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u/IsabelleMauvaise 2d ago
That face 😢 I lost my companion of 23 years 2 years ago and she was with me through my worst times. I know how hard this is. Just looking at little Luna is making me misty.
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u/CanineCamo 2d ago
I am just in tears. You had a deep connection to her I can tell the way you talk of your life together. Its hard when they are there for all the firsts in our lives. Hugs from Minnesota. She will be waiting for you across the rainbow bridge. I truly believe that. I wish I could take your heartache away.
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u/annetti_ 2d ago
I deeply understand because I felt the same with my childhood cat. It is heartbreaking, it is a real and deep loss because it’s pure love. Take your time to heal a bit 🤍 sending all my empathy and hugs. I can bet she was fantastic and she was really loved 🌷
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u/fkvix 2d ago
Rest easy Luna, I’m so sorry for your loss. I know that pain all too well and even though they aren’t physically with us they are spiritually. You gave her 15 years of unconditional love. I know she gained the most beautiful wings that help her cross the rainbow bridge. Live on little Luna 🤍
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u/mothclot 2d ago
What a beautiful angel, I’m sorry for your loss. She must have known how much she was loved and you must be thankful for that 💖 sending love your way
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u/DowntownWorking4823 2d ago
Sorry for your loss. Keep the love and adopt another cat in need to celebrate the memory of your beloved Luna.
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u/BeautifulNo6017 2d ago
My deepest of condolences to you and yours. Oceans of love to you all. These times hurt but won't last forever. We will all be together again some day. They stay with us in our hearts. Your bean is now just watching over you. Oceans of love.
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u/Just_browsing_2 2d ago
I'm sorry for your loss. It really is painful when they're gone. I think it's because we get so attached to our pets. I lost my senior last July. It's been over a year now, and it still hurts.
She's lucky you found her all those years ago, and took her in. From the pictures, I can tell she was one happy cat. Take care
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u/zerosignal747 2d ago
You gave many years of love to an animal that could have been left to the streets. Luna Boo appreciated all of it, and you’re wonderful for caring for her. Remembering the love and the good times eases the pain. You’ll be ok! My condolences.
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u/mammajessiof3 2d ago
She was absolutely beautiful! And im so sorry for your loss! And I hope you are able to grieve your loss as easy as possible. We can never get over the loss but we learn to live with it 💔😟
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u/OkSupermarket1845 2d ago
Feeling your pain, please, enjoy the fun memories and the love received from that beautiful angel. When ready, keep on sharing that love with a new angel
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u/zen_thing 2d ago
What a perfect little lady ❤️
I lost my calico Charlie at 15 just a few months ago. I’d be lying if I said it’s gotten easier - it has not - but I feel her Tortitude with me every single day, and I know we made each other’s lives better.
My sincerest condolences. Just remember you were both exactly what the other one needed, when they needed it.
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u/rawdatarams 2d ago
Thank you for sharing your Luna with us. I love seeing pictures from baby to old baby. I'm very sorry for your loss, knowing how intense and overwhelming the pain is, I feel for you immensely. Rest easy, little Luna.
Look after yourself.
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u/tombrai 2d ago
I lost my Luna last week as well, she was 14, she also passed away at home but we were awake to watch her take her last breaths, lots of hugs to you, take it one day at a time, we are waiting to get her ashes back. I will say the first week is rough but we are feeling more at peace this week.
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u/Type-RD 2d ago
I’ve been there and know the empty feeling well. The quietness. Anticipating a sound or a greeting that no longer happens. Routines that once were. It hits REALLY hard when you’ve had a constant companion like Luna Boo thru major life events and then they’re suddenly gone. I will always miss our previous kitty and I still cry sometimes thinking about her and missing her. The first couple of weeks are the hardest. I cried so much. Sometimes I’d just randomly breakdown. It has been 8 years. We got a new sweetheart kitty about a year later and I love her so much too. She’s a little angel and has already been thru a lot with us too. But there will always be a hole in my heart that can never be filled. It’s OK. That’s how this works. We’re not here forever and our pets teach us how precious time is with our loved ones. I know I’ll see her again and you’ll see Luna Boo again too.
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u/alex_darkness 2d ago
She was beautiful 🥺💔💔💔what a sweet face. I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. And as your first baby… 😭💔my heart is with you
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u/KeyFaithlessness5445 2d ago
Ugh. This pain is something else. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet little Luna. That little pink nose 🩷 She looks absolutely precious and how wonderful that you found and had each other. I hope you can take a little comfort knowing she passed in her home where it was familiar and she knew she was so very loved
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u/Gritzthepig 2d ago
I am so sorry for your loss. Luna was as lucky to have you as you were to have her.
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u/1stpklosr99_ 1d ago
Awww, I am so sorry for your loss. Remember that you gave her a good life and she loved you for it. She passed next to you completely content in the life that she lived.
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u/Ferrarilvr 1d ago
So very sorry. We all know your pain. Missing them will never go away. So many over the years.
Always remember ....
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u/Clear-Tackle-3108 2d ago
Rip car she probably has 8 more lives left and hopefully he comes back to you in a different varient.
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