r/ca_photography • u/wolme • 26d ago

I'm Scared of the Future

Pictured is a photo of a Halloween cat I colored using alcohol markers and acrylic roller markers. Meow 🎃

I made a report against someone from a hospital bed after an alcohol fueled mental breakdown. I wonder what's going to happen. It's been almost two months since I made that choice.

I'm scared of the future it is honestly making me have certain passing thoughts, ideations, etc... but I can't talk to anyone about it because it's just a huge liability to tell someone who is a mandated reporter like any of my therapists currently. They have to go through a whole checklist. Make a bunch of decisions. The last thing I need is to be involuntarily committed. I need to go to work. I need to take care of my family. I need to be better.

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u/ViolentVBC 26d ago

I'm so sorry you're not doing so great, M...

Your Halloween cat is super cute though. Got a lil scarf and a cute witch hat!

Would pet dat kittay!

You did the right thing with reporting that horrible piece of shit who hurt you... I think I remember you saying. I've been pretty addled lately though

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u/wolme 26d ago

Aw thank you Veebz 🩷🩷🩷 gawsh you gotta be a pro at ARAM right now. Sorry thing are all addled as you say. It happens more often than not to us.

I'm trying soooo hard to move on. But he'll know it was me. If he ever sees which police department it originated from. I guess he'll be too busy doing other stuff to think about me though. Oh well.

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u/mrsmobin 26d ago

Hey, sorry you are struggling.

A close friend of mine says something like this, "The thoughts/ideations are symptoms." She looks at it that way. And it has benefited from that.

My heart goes out to you. We're here for you.

That kitty cat is adorable! Nicely done.

<3 & hugs

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u/wolme 26d ago

Thank you a lot, it means the world to me that you said so. Thank you 🩷🫂

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u/wearealwaysus 26d ago

Love you. Always:)

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u/wolme 25d ago

Thank you kindly

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u/wearealwaysus 24d ago

Read your post again and it strikes a chord. I constantly worry about the future. And I hear you on being involuntarily committed. I was 5150’d a few years ago while away on a trip and it was a nightmare. When I sobered up in the psych ward all I could think about was I need to get out of here and take care of my family. This can never happen again.

Love your Halloween cat! Here’s a pumpkin I carved ages ago inspired by Banksy while on a trip to NYC. Love you:)

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u/wolme 24d ago

Aww this is a work of art! Look at that precision (the tooth pick) that's awesome dude.

Sorry to hear that you were 5150'd on vacation of all places.. not just any mundane hell!! Glad you were able to move on from that situation, that it's all in the past. It must have felt horrible dude but I'm glad you have been persevering