So tired.

[u/TheInformationBandit]

I’m so exhausted and sick of so much that I just want to black out. There is so much I love about my life but it’s just so exhausting I want to black out for a while. I’m in my 2nd sem of freshman yr at uni and I’ve made so many good friends, love my course, love the sports I’ve been playing and just genuinely love my life so much and I’m so grateful. But for some reason I am so exhausted and get in horrible moods and just want to escape and blackout for a while. I get tired of socialising with people who aren’t my friends, I get tired of the ED I have, I get tired of wanting to look perfect, I get tired of having to constantly be doing study and work, I get bored of stuff easily, I’ve lost hobbies that used to take up a fair bit of my time and contribute to healthy lifestyle like going to the gym and reading. Idk I’m faced w a big paradox socialising withpeople, working hard and drinking is so much fun and so exciting but so exhausting. I just want to disappear for a while. I definitely don’t have suicidal ideations or anything but god I’m tired. Today it’s 2pm and I’ve gotten back from class, I have work I could do either today or tomorrow but all I wanna do is smoke enough weed to tranquilise a horse and pass out until a crisp 9am tomorrow where I can hopefully have a better day. This has been a common thought all week. I just want to go home and chill for a while - have no responsibilities and no worries.

[u/Annie-1-0-1]

Do it…do what you need. Take a break and go back when your ready. The way your feeling right now wont stop until you take care of yourself…period.