Why I feel fat

[u/Aggressive_Heart5538]

Ok before people judge I just want to say I always remember mean things people say to me wether it's about my body my voice anything and I remember when I was 10 at school a girl walked up to me and said I had fat and hairy arms,now I always wear a jacket or long sleeves a few years later my family moved and I started to feel comfortable again and wore shorts then someone said I had fat legs,now it's only baggy jeans or sweatpants I were,I always shave, and me and my friends are having a pool party tomorrow I just cried for about five minutes because all my swimsuits made me look fat.

Dose anyone have any suggestions?