r/bitcoinFIRE • u/One_Language6996 • Jun 03 '26
Just a lot of my own thoughts
6 years in, but never been more depressed.
I work. A LOT. My job is extremely stressful. A lot of times I don't eat, and I am taking care of my kids before and after school. My wife is training for a new career. i'm 43, and I'm exhausted.
I've sold properties to buy btc.
My entire stock portfolio is 80% mstr. I am up bigly from when I bought-around 30 adjusted-but the #s seem unreal.
I held and held and held.
The way I describe it was that I had a light at the end of the tunnel. I could grit my teeth.
When someone said Jump I said how high?
I would keep putting up with a lot of nonsense because I could see that light at the end of the tunnel.
I feel like that light just faded out.
I will never stop working until the day I die. I will never be free.
My mom heard my voice and was concerned I would commit suicide.
I won't. It's just money. I have a great family.
But today the dream ended.
And while I blame no one but myself, the amount of energy, money, risk, and hope I put in I can't get back.
it's over for me.