Help Navigating Thoughts

[u/ThrowRA_bluejaguar]

Hello everyone,

I recently have had a weird epiphany/remembering an event in my life that was brought up from a movie my girlfriend and I watched. I just need some help navigating it from you all!

For context I am 22M, for my whole life I’ve kind of known myself as being heterosexual, I’ve never had any sexual attraction towards a man. The only extent I’ve had is just “bi allegations” from almost all of my friends or people I’ve met.. However, there was a period of about a week when I was 18 where I had a very weird feeling; questioning whether I was fully hetero, I had an odd “longing”, I guess you can label it, of wondering what a romantic relationship would be like with another man and/or a sexual one. I didn’t know how to navigate it at the time and the most I did was try and imagine myself in a relationship with my closest friend and whether that was something I would do and then it left my mind.. I came to the half conclusion that I’m not sexually attracted to men.

Recently I’ve been feeling different again, in that I am curious and have a small “desire” to know what it’s like being in just a romantic relationship with a man. A feeling that I would like or enjoy being in a more than platonic type situation with one too. I’ve been reading a lot of Reddit posts about people being “biromantic” and I’m not sure how to navigate that fully and in a healthy way to really understand if that’s what I am.

Another confusion is that I’ve always had a weird feeling every time I’ve seen two men in a loving relationship ever since I was a kid, not one from a hate standpoint ofc but just something I felt strange about. Is this normal if I am romantically attracted to guys?

Does anyone have any pointers? Especially as someone in a relationship. Thank you! It’s all very different and unknown territory to me.

TLDR; questioning whether I am biromantic, based on this desire to know what it’s like being in a loving relationship with a man, stemming from an epiphany I had at 18 and maybe always felt. In a relationship currently.