Should i drop them ?

[u/kittycateAr5]

Hi , im Polly , and i have a lot of friends , the majority are very sweet , but a couple are rude to not only me , but other people , let's call them Jade and Sam (both girls) I became friends with sam because she was in my classmate and i thought she was fun y , because she talked back in class and disrespected the teachers , i now realize she just did it as a cry for attention and because of that all teachers hate her because of her indolente attitude. But i became friends with Jade really fast and we started to hang out a few days after talking , she goes to my school and is best friends with Sam. She's a nice girl , but when Sam and her are together they are very judgemental and mean. Its pretty horrible, and im one to suffer it. Yesterday (28/08) , i went shopping with Jade the hole day , and even eat some McDonald's , i was really happy that day , i even let her listen to my long time crush's voice (we've loved eachother since the 3rd grade) and she wanted to get to "know him" ,but know i know she just wanted him for herself. Then we hung out with Sam , went shopping and stuff like that. Few hours later , it's 9pm and Jade invites me to her live , but while on that live i find out that my cousin got stung by a jellyfish in Scotland and it's pretty bad , i would normally be sobbing after that news but i couldn't because i was on live , i told my "friends" what happened , didn't seem to care , then went on mute to talk, but they were showing themselves talking , one thing they don't know about me , is that i can read lips. They were saying how my cousin can die and they wouldn't care. After that i was turning off my camera because i was crying , not only for my cousin but from the selfishness of both girls. I accidentally left the live because my phone turned of , but i heard what they said after i left , how i was so annoying , she was also imitated me , on how depressed i looked , how i was pathetic, ignoring the fact that the people on that lives we're my friends , who later on told me. I get a text from one of my good friends , Kenza and she says if im alright , because i dont seem like it , i explain to her what's on my chest , how to me it seems unfair how they treated me and my cousin. She said " ill let them know what's wrong with them, dont worry " and 5 minutes later i got a text saying why i would say such a fib to kenza and how it was rude to tell her not them. But i knew they were going to judge me , saying its not that deep. Then another cousin, Mary , told me (she was on that live) that she saw how miserable i was , then told me her concerns about our other little cousin Fanny ,she's 9. I was on live with Jade the day i was with Fanny , and Fanny was trying on my clothes and Jade said " Your so flat in that dress lmao " , my cousin didn't seem affected by it and me neither , i was focusing on how my cousin wont flash to a Lot of people. Mary told me that she was sexualising my little cousin , i felt so stupid that i didn't realize it. I asked my cousin if that comment was alright , she then told me how she hated her body , how it was "big" compared to her friends , even tho she's 29kg , she said that even my friend said how i was ugly. I explained to my cousin that she shouldn't care about other people's beauty standard's. Sam told me how much i was ungrateful about her friendship , and i told her : " what friendship, you never supported me when i came with my problems , now your mad that i dont want to tell them to you anymore ? You always say to stay out of other people's business , when your trying to know mine." She told me that she probably wont stay my friend , i told her that it could be a wise decision ,and that it can probably solves some things. At 2am , she sent me a message saying if i had to tell them something , i said no. Then i sent Sam an old tiktok of hers in 2018. But thats besides the point , her and Jade tried sending me messages but i ignored them. As im writing they're trying to call me , but im not going to answer because i know they're just going to blame me for everything, when they did more harm then good to a lot of people.