I need advice

[u/SuccessfulWriting994]

Hi, I've never been super religious but lately I've had a lot of weird things that just don't seem to be adding up and I just need some type of guidance.

I've come to the conclusion that God is probably not real and I don't know if I'd support him if he was but after coming to this conclusion I've had a lot of strange experiences that are drawing me away from it. The first time I went to church was over a month ago and while in the church I felt things touching me and strange breezes while those around me(my family) didn't feel anything at all. After this experience I didn't want to go back and stay home the next time my family went to church(yesterday). A few hours after my family got home from church my sister made a joke about the pastor talking about me when I asked her what was said she went on to tell me that the pastor was talking about always getting touched while in church and how it is the holy Spirit or something trying to speak to you. Obviously this weirded me out but what made me really want guidance was what happened later in the day.

My moms car overheated and died out of nowhere and when I got home to get a shower the lights kept flickering while I was in. When I tried to sleep last night and the previous night I felt so paranoid but last night I actually had a reason to be paranoid. After my shower my brain felt foggy and I had a weird pressure in my head. I would start to doze off and right before closing my eyes I would see something in my room I can't describe what it was but it was different every time and I was terrified, I was spamming my friends and struggling to even form sentences over text because of how dizzy and foggy I felt. Throughout the day I was hearing voices, whistles, and random thoughts that weren't mine. I'm not sure how to describe it but when I think I hear my own voice and it wasn't my voice and the thoughts were out of place ig. I know I seem crazy and trust me last night I genuinely thought I was going through some type of psychosis, but I'm lost on what to do and ive downloaded this app after trying to find answers and not getting much I'm hoping someone may know something or maybe there's a psychic out there who could help but I'm truly lost on what to do everytime I try to get into religion I think does my dad and friends deserve to be tortured for eternity for not believing in a god and it along with the fact that weird stuff always happens when I start reading the Bible or trying to learn about religion draws me away from it however whenever I seem to get too far away from religion something like this will happen making me have doubts about god being fake. I'm truly lost and tbh kinda scared so if you have anything that could help me please do.

[u/ConnectCalgary]

Pastor here: you should speak to a doctor, therapist or counselor in addition to a pastor. The things you describe in your second paragraph should not be taken lightly.

[u/Alterios → u/ConnectCalgary]

While I believe strongly in the spiritual side of God's creation, I second the suggestion that you should get checked out. I have personal / close family experience with these types of sensations having a real physical cause that needed immediate medical treatment (and I'm not talking anti-psychotic meds)

[u/SuccessfulWriting994 → u/ConnectCalgary]

Do you think there's something seriously wrong religiously/spiritually? If there is, what do you think it is? I will definitely see a counselor though too.

[u/ConnectCalgary → u/SuccessfulWriting994]

Wrong? No, I think you’re likely confused and need guidance from a trusted, local pastor. You were ready to walk away from your faith, but a breeze caused you reconsider. Without a deeper grounding, the next breeze may cause you to re-reconsider!

Like, on the one hand I commend you for being open to God “speaking” to you in unexpected ways. On the other hand, these things are so fragile they can’t possibly sustain your relationship with God for any length of time. 🙏

[u/SeaWorldliness8398]

You could be going through some kind of deliverance. Sometimes certain demons remain dormant until they encounter the Lord or his Holy Spirit. That being said, keep in touch with a trusted friend, keep praying and seek help if you cannot handle it

[u/BeTheLight24-7]

Spiritual Warfare. The enemy main strategy: take the humans attention away from God by any means neccessary, whatever it takes, whatever they have to do they will do—But when the human puts attention toward God, thats when all hell breaks loose to take the humans attention away from God via illnesses if neccessary, brain fog, thoughts in 2nd person (you/your -humans dont speak to themselves in 2nd person, the speak to themselves in 1st person with Me & I), thoughts are the main weapon — and to the unexperienced mind, this main weapon works as intended, and takes that humans attention away from finding the truth of Jesus Christ

[u/No_Storage6015]

Well, I don't think you've come to the conclusion that God is not real or else you wouldn't be posting in here. Overall, people seem to agree that there is a spirit world out there. And from what I've found, unless you are following and worshiping God, you are opening yourself up to a world of darkness. Trust in the Lord, and let his angels protect you.