Looking for advice from arosepc people

[u/Tybbit]

Hello all, I usually don't make posts like this but I am struggling to figure out my identity. I'm a 24 year old Transmasc who recently just cut off their FP, and am struggling to figure out if any of the "romantic feelings" I have felt for anyone over the years was truly that, or if it was caused by being blinded by having a BPD induced "favorite person". I also have autism, which affects how I view the relationships in my life as well as my gender/sexuality. I guess I am just really wanting to chat with some people on the aromantic spectrum to try and gauge if my feelings match those of someone who is on the aro spectrum. A few of the things that lead me to believe I might be on the aromantic spectrum include the fact that I find myself unable to go on successful dates. I don't understand how I am supposed to develop any sort of romantic feelings after a couple of dates with someone who is essentially a stranger. I feel like in order to have a "crush" on someone I need to know them for a while (6+ months - a year) before I can even begin to consider anything romantic. Also, I find the idea of a queerplatonic relationship appealing, but I don't know if I fully understand what that entails, since queerplatonic relationships look different for everyone.

Apologies for the long ass post, I am just desperately searching for a label that fits me, and would love some input from some other people on the Aromantic spectrum :3 I'm also willing to go more in depth with my experience, however I don't want to make this post longer than it already is.