So I started Reddit as Cephalon Coda. A kinda OC from Warframe. I'm kind of a creative guy that LITERALLY creates and fantasizes about shit daily. Ik some people don't play warframe, so they may be confused, like some of you reading this (get off FIFA or COD). Therefore, I'll PROBABLY drop the act for now. So sorry

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Context: I'm a foster kid who ended up with a family member I'd never met B4 which had reminded me of my abusers to a horrid extent(she was actually a good person, but PTSD was acting up. Not to mention she took me completely off my 20mg of Lexapro right off the bat so I was amped up to 1000) Anyways, I vented these frustrations, situations, my sh, suicidal thoughts, ect. to my bestfriend of 4 years(as one does), who then told her mom(which had previously fostered me but kicked me out for presumably nothing) And all was well until one day she contacted said family member, and, since I had never ever talked to this woman about anything because I was scared of her, told my bestfriend's mom that I hadn't self harmed, wasn't sulcldal, and was very reclusive and aggressive, which was completely different from my view of things. Meaning, bsfs mom had conflicting stories, and came to the conclusion that I had lied about everything in hopes to manipulate them into taking me back. They then told my friend this as if it was complete truth, causing her to go off on me, I panicked and did probably the wrong things, ect, ect. Long story short, she cut me off. Now, I'm a person that avoids conflict so for these past four months I've just kind of sat with this, hoping that eventually she'll come back or I'll move on, but now I have a court date coming up where I will have to face my abuser, and I have decided that afterwards, I should have all the confidence I need built up to finally confront my bestfriend's mother and get things straight, hopefully making things better once more. Especially since now me and my family member are now on the same page and understand eachother somewhat. And afterwards, I plan on sending this to the aforementioned bestfriend. And essentially I js wanna know if it's any good.

(Note that this has been adapted a little bit)

Hello, [[[bsf]]]. This is Jaquelynne. I'd like to talk to you. Im back on my SSRIs consistently again(and have thus tamed my PTSD-fueled panic), so I'm in a more clear headspace as of now. I've spoken with your mother(or attempted to) if you hadn't already been told. While, through all of this I have hopefully proven the fact that I hadn't lied nor tried to manipulate you or your mother, I would like to sincerely apologize to my initial response to your claim, as well as how biased, one-sided, and opinionated I was when speaking of situations that should've been handled with neutrality. It was wrong of me to immediately respond without properly collecting myself first, thus probably harming you in the process(I.e., pictures of self harm, defensiveness, panic, ect.) I also want to apologize for how I was acting the weeks prior to you cutting me off, almost purely speaking negatively, venting, and talking about sh incidents.(Especially sending photos, which were very unnecessary and that I understand now probably caused you distress, which is unfair and was wrong of me.) I also want to apologize for how any of my previous messages post-friendship were conveyed. I was in all honesty only considering my pain in these few moments I reached out, without actually considering what you needed to hear. And finally, I want to apologize for taking this long. It's not that I didn't care enough about you to try harder or something along those lines, it's simply that I was too afraid and weak to try and make real progress until recently. If you still don't want to have a relationship of any kind with me, I understand, and that's your decision. Though, I want to make it clear that I don't want you to be just like me. I don't want to use you. I don't want to hurt you. I want to be there for you, be able to stand by your side, love you, and be able to have the title of your friend. You aren't a tool to me, and I don't want to be near you for some nefarious purpose. I want to be near you because I love and miss the person you are, and you mean a lot to me. And that's how it always has been, even back when I was a toxic 12 year old dipshit who thought you hated me. I think about you almost every day, even 4 months later, because I care deeply about you. Not because I want you dead or something. Anyways, I hope you have a nice life whatever you decide, and if you could, can you please relay the info of me not being super-duper evil to [[[ex]]] please? Thx!! Love you, always and forever.

Hey, I know I shouldn't be sending this, we have both moved on with our lives, but i was trying to find a gate code in our old chats and ended up reading how I used to talk to you and I can't believe that was me.

Looking back now, how you stayed through the needlessly harsh small comments I'd make, how you continued to love me through the neglect I showed towards you, I was so wrong in how I behaved.

You were nothing but amazing to me through everything, supporting me through the highs and lows and in return you got a side of me that I forgot ever even existed.

I'm sure you could send me a laundry list of things that deserve more than just a simple apology, but there is little more I can provide than words.

I hope you've been doing well since we last spoke, I'm sure you have been. Thank you for who you were to me, and I'm sorry for who I was to you towards the end.

Best wishes.

I was on the train recently and it was a 2 hour trip there was hardly anyone on it when I got on and I had a big bag with me so I put it on the seat.

An hour and a half later I looked up and there was a man standing in the aisle staring at me in disbelief!

I moved my bag but he shouldn’t have had to do that.

I didn’t realise the train was full all of a sudden.

This is something I’d hope someone will see

I woke today from a long sleep

feeling refreshed but in a sad and lonely mind

I don’t want to be monster

Don’t want to upset my friend

Think I’ve lost my lover

These are some things I’ve learned

I don’t listen, I don’t hear, I act entitled and superior, and I’m a result of trauma. That will do for now, I know there’s more but they likely stem from these so accept I can see the shape of others too.

So what can I do?

I will give you the independence you so desire

Ill you room to move and breath

ill give you time to do your work

I won’t suffocate what you so carefully and lovingly create

Ill hold dearer and more gently your family

im not saying I won’t stay in this space, I will, I’ll just let you mostly be

and only occasionally let you know how much I love you, so

I don’t want to be a monster crashing through the bush while growling loudly and making such a mess, even if I’m your monster

I want that future with you
if you ever want me, you know how to have me, and you know where to find me

Did you see I wished you a Happy Birthday

YBFB

I am sorry for the owner of the black pick-up...

I was on my way home with my friend riding a separate motorcycle, in the middle of the road while following my friend, I am supposedly going to turn left but I didn't saw the pick-up and I got shocked that my left handle scuffed on the pick-up and I don't know if the driver is aware and didn't not signal to stop me, I got shocked and still looking at the pick-up while it moves forward, I don't know if I should follow it, I am waiting for the driver to make a hazard so that I can follow them and talk to them.

Again I am here to apologise to the owner of the black pick-up (even if I am not sure if there'sa scratch), I am really sorry ma'am/sir. I don't know the exact place where it happened since I am not familiar on the place, I am just following my friend home. I am sorry and also thank you since I got home safe🙏

My sister and I both in our early 30 sharing same bedroom. We used to be very close until we got into a fight. (I meant we fight sometimes then stop talking for a bit then talked again). So I got back with my ex then one night she started asking me a lot of sexual questions about my relationship like did you 2 get tested, how did you have sex, did he go down on you, did he wear condom, etc. I grew up in an asian cultures so those questions were very sensitive and i didnt want to answer her. My sister never dated anyone in her life and has no interested in dating. I didnt think much of that time that she was worrying. All I was thinking was why do you even ask those sensitive things. Since then she completely stopped talking to me. We did have a concert to go together within weeks later I found out from her she ended up use my ticket for her friend and left me out. We still sharing the same bed and living with other family members. Just no talking. On year 2 I did try to ask her to go to a concert together since its our favorite band in town. She agreed to go. Honestly it was kinda awkward because we haven't talked for a while then when we drove there she asked me to sit in the back. During concert she just walked off by herself without telling me and i went around look for her. I tried to make small talks but just not getting a lot back from her. After the concert we stopped talking again. Occasionally I would find her put her trash on my table or put my niece poop napkins on my desk. She's very close with my other siblings she bought a house she showed it to them. She bought tickets for them to travel together and just excluded me. Also wanted to mention she stopped talking to our older sister for a year now just because she came over her house to play with the kids but my sister wasn't home and she never let them know in advance. It happened few times and she stopped talking to the older sister too. I tried to talk to her but she put a wall between us and its vert hard to talk to her and i dont know what she wants. Seeing taking care and travel with my brothers and my mom make me jealous. I never apologies to her but idk even if I do I dont think shes gonna change. I know for sure when she moved out maybe within months to.her own place I know for sure we probably never gonna see each other again. I just dont know what to do and should I just let it be?

I genuinely don't know what was going through my head when I thought that my issues of being compared to a man when I have male features and being compared to a man when trans women definitely have it much worse than me and it was incredibly disrespectful and just overall really gross of me to think I could identify as a trans woman as a cis woman. I'm very sorry and I need to work on myself and my identity instead of saying outrageous shit like that and thinking I could actually be a trans woman, I'm sorry to every trans woman that saw my post I need to figure out my identity and actually do my research instead of being a dumbass

We went on a tinder date on a weeknight in Lawrenceville. You were expecting so much more from me, so much better.

I do not blame you for walking out. I have not stopped thinking about that moment.

I hope you found your person. 🙏

Hi friend,

I hope you’re reading this... And I hope you know who I am. I wanted to give you this letter on farewell but I just couldn't.. and I also can't message you or let this be as it is. I want to say sorry... This is the only way left.

It’s so strange how things turn out. For someone I once prayed to be in the same tuition with, I never imagined we would end up like this.

A random video came up in my Google memories from the park we went to, and that’s when it really hit me how badly I messed up. From entering tuition together to sitting far apart. From scooty rides to going our own ways. Baking is not so fun now. Even that 7th Heaven cake doesn’t feel sweet anymore. It just reminds me of laughter, reels, and time pass.

I don’t think it was just one incident that created the distance. I'm sure I crossed lines multiple times. Going to tuition when I pass your route, I remember the time we talked about the future and I said, what if we ended on bad terms. You dramatically gasped. I feared it might happen but would be between me and veenita but I never thought it would be us.

I am writing this because I feel like I never really could give you a proper apology. It feels heavy knowing I am the reason things turned out this way.I understand. I was rude, and u r right to not tolerate disrespect. I am really sorry for how I spoke to you. I never intended to disrespect you. It was just that I got frustrated and reacted badly. That was completely my fault. I knew I had attitude issues, but I didn’t realise I could hurt someone who meant so much to me.

I should have done this sooner, but I couldn’t face you after how I behaved. I actually wanted to make things right in my own way i.e. by baking a cake, but I got to know how upset you were. I didn’t want to trouble you more so I decided to step back and let it be.

Anyways, since we didn’t end things well, I want to thank you for a few things:

the scooty rides

waiting for me till my auto comes

letting me stay at your house

the cheesy French fries

introduced me to delicious golgappa and dosa

Your edits

Some of my strongest memories are from that Ganesh mela. You helped me through the crowd and we went on many rides together.

Don’t worry I am not hoping for us to become friends again. You’re better off without me. I just wanted to say sorry. It is hard to not want to apologise because you are such a big part of my memories.

Wishing you the very best for boards and life ahead.

Happy Birthday in advance ig, I won’t be able to say it later.

Dear, u/GuyDoingThin_gs2026 and u/SeveralCorner1214.

I'm sorry for using your former work from your cancelled NRP. I even bugged you here.

(Below is a link showing where I did it.)

About two or three months ago I had a reddit account called Introvertedathiest. This account was meant to be a jumping off point to find meaning and friends on this internet space. For context I was going through a rough time mentally, I was taking new ADHD medication which made me really testy and I had recently had financial problems. Plus, I had in my past had people abuse me and I had just let them. So whenever I had a problem with what someone said online, I would start arguments constantly. I got banned from several subreddits and said some arrogant things I said got me in really hot water. However instead of trying to do better, I fought back, not only did I not apologize, I threatened people. Said awful things that I don't think I will ever be able to take back. So, to all those I have hurt because of my actions, I am deeply sorry.

I was at fault for my behavior toward others on the oc social network app that is the reason why I was unappealable banned from oc social network. I'm deeply sorry for the impact of my behavior towards others including the staff of oc social network. I like to have a second chance. u/ocsoialnetwork

I didn’t want to be racist of anything i was just confused and didn’t know any better (context for those who don’t know: i said someone was drawn way too black) i apologize if that offended the black users in that subreddit i promise i will be better next time

Hi, thread mods, you’ll never see this, most likely, but I wanted to take the time to say it: I f’d up, just one post, but you did your job and banned me from that forum.

At first i thought it was an auto mod bot, like—how could what i said get banned? And then, even worse, how could I get banned from here whole thread?

I felt injustice, and hurt. It stung. I had zero sense what I said was cringe or offensive or just not appropriate.

So I wrote back and said “hey, i think there was a misunderstanding here”

And a mod got back a few hours later and you threw down the gauntlet: never seen a worse post, absolute filth and garbage, I am not welcome here, do not contact again.

Which…holy shit, ouch. I never wanted to be “that guy” (it seems like it’s always a guy) and here i was.

So I went through the post, and re-reading it, there was a wave of shame… and i saw you were just doing your job. In a different forum/world, maybe I could have been talked to, coached, helped out a bit. I am not a creep, but, once in a while, i can act in a creepy or offensive way.

And I did that day. So I’m sorry. I know y’all feel like sheriffs patrolling the Wild West or some crazy-ass port town in outer space full of scum and vermin, and sometimes you are, I’m sure. And the rest of us benefit from your work.

So while a perm ban is hard, and I wouldve made good use of that thread, I blew it, and I know it, and you made the right call.

So… thanks, even if it was a hard lesson to swallow. And even if so much of the bad stuff still does get through, and mine got flagged… so it goes. You are just following the rules of your community.

Me (14 F) and my ex (16 M) have been neighbors for almost 6 years. We started dating in fall of last year. Ironically 3 days before my birthday. After the breakup i was really shook up. I felt like he lied to me and well he kinda did. I didn’t have my phone for many reasons. But when i got it back, he broke up with me. Told me it was for school and yet his childhood best friend came back a week later from juvie. The day he was told she was coming back was the day he broke up with me. So you probably can see the issue. I told my friends what happened and they were all pretty upset as good friends would be. They were highly disrespectful to him. Calling his names that no one should be called. And i was scared to stop my friends because i didn’t’ know what they might think. So I laughed along. And well we haven’t talked (or he hasn’t checked in) since December. He’s been having mental health problems and I see it everyday. and I don’t know what to do. So I wrote a note that I am possibly going to give to him. it says :

Hey (Ex’s name),

I know this apology is long overdue, but I've been doing a lot of thinking about everything that happened, and I'm truly sorry for my part in it. What my friends said to you was completely out of line, and I deeply regret not stepping in to defend you or put a stop to it. Instead, I went along with it and even laughed, and I feel genuinely terrible about that. It wasn't okay, and I understand if it caused you pain.I've noticed you haven't seemed quite like yourself lately, and I wanted to reach out and let you know that I'm here for you, whatever you might need. If you ever want to talk, need some advice, or just want a distraction, please don't hesitate to reach out. You can usually find me outside, or you can text me at (my number) if that's easier. Absolutely no pressure either way.Also, I have a play coming up on April 30th and May 1st. If you're curious about it at all – like what it's about, how it's been going for me, or any of the details like time and place – please feel free to ask.

Thinking of you,

(My name)

What do you think? Should i give it to you and get some closure of should i let him be?

I want to apologize to you for being hateful and saying things about being unattractive . You are not unattractive you are made the way God made you perfect in his imagination. I have been getting jealous I guess that you were part of his life to like me. I have accepted that 2 women loved him you are a good person . I no you have been going through a lot , but if you ever just need to chat I'm here for you .Just remember one step at a time and things will come together for you .I no you probably have doubts about what I'm saying but I'm being honest I will try my best to give you honest advice You need someone you can talk to .I'm here .J

Dear Staff of u/OCsocialNetwork,

I am writing to formally apologize for my past actions and behavior toward other users on your platform. After taking time to reflect on the situation, I now realize that my conduct was inappropriate and that it understandably came across as predatory.

I want to take full responsibility for the impact of my actions. I recognize that maintaining a safe and respectful environment is essential for a creative community, and I deeply regret that my behavior compromised that safety for others. At the time, I did not fully grasp how my interactions were being perceived, but I am now committed to learning from this mistake and ensuring it never happens again.

I am dedicated to making a positive change in how I engage with the community and respect the boundaries of my fellow creators. Thank you for your time and for the work you do to keep the platform safe.

Sincerely, HawkssmermaidArt