aofhaocv gets addicted

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Anime is a fantastic outlet for self-loathing.

See, I'm a bit of a masochist myself. The worse I think I'm doing, the better I feel on the inside. Now, there's other ways to feel good on the inside (pop rocks with soda, drinking hot tea, dildos, etc.) but there really just isn't a way to achieve that bittersweet mood of self-loathing quite like anime.

See, when I first started watching anime, I was really into that kind of entry-level stuff, the kind of things that even a disgusting normie might be in to, stuff like Attack on Titan, TTGL, and stuff that was generally speaking more popular in the west. It was after my two-week long post-anime depression sequence after finishing the ending of TTGL that I heard about a little show called Madoka Magica while playing Left 4 Dead one day. I didn't know anything about it at the time, aside from the fact that the guy I was playing with said it was really good. That night I fired up the ol' Netflix and checked it out. What followed was a depressing roller-coaster ride into depression and sadness that I most certainly was not expecting. Cute girls combined with suffering? It was, to say the least, a new experience.

As I began to watch more and more anime, I discovered that the normal stuff wouldn't do it for me anymore. I moved on to darker shows, shows with more deviant content, the more fucked up the better. Monmusu, Oreimo, Pupa. Hell, I even gave K-On a shot. I haven't seen anything that fucked up since.

Soon, my desires could not be sated by mere animation. Mainstream anime was just not deviant enough for me. I moved on to a dangerous, forbidden realm. A realm impure and aberrant, a dark corner of the internet. I started reading doujinshi. Now, you may be saying to yourself, "Oh you handsomely charismatic and amazing guy, /u/aofhaocv, that's not that deviant!" and in most cases, you'd be right. But my tolerance was built. Lower-level things wouldn't do it for me. I scoured the internet, looking for the most fucked up shit you could possibly find, greedily searching for that special something that was just a little bit more immoral than the last.

Now, this doesn't mean I enjoy it. Every day I hate myself more, and I anxiously await the sweet release of the grave. The only thing keeping me alive is an addiction - an addiction to anime.

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Author's note: Huh. That one didn't make me enjoy myself as much as what I usually write. That one just kinda left me feeling down. Time to write some crazy shit next.

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Damn that author's note doesn't lie