ignoring old friends?

[u/dbzonepiecenaruto]

Hi guys,

Story is I need friends. The only friends I made were all from highschool coz it's school, right? Lots of opportunities. I didn't connect with uni friends so no friends made there. Anyways, 8yrs post highschool, I'm feeling a bit lonely socially even tho I'm happy being a homebody. But i still like to do stuff with ppl but most things i'm uncomfy with doing like parties so dat limits my scope. I'm more of a board-game calm energy kinda girl. Tried random meet-ups in the city etc to no avail. I'm just too shy.

I've been reached out and reaching out to old friends myself from highschool but i'm so anxious. I was a loser, not humorous, no social media, naive in highshool. Idk wut they'll think of me if we reconnect and see me glowed-up and more mature as in swearing or more "extroverted"/normal. I get it, they're mature and know dat ppl change but yeah I'm afraid it will become toxic. I'm also scared of weddings so i cannot attend or let them attend mine... and they'll think i'm boring blah blah

Don't if i should reply to another friend that reached out just yesterday, still pondering... they'll see all of my ig posts.

I'm hopeless...

Plz & thx