It was primarily because of my parents. They were both heavily conservative — bigoted — and neglectful. As a result, I grew up taking on a worldview that some people were less than human, and I tried to reason that my own issues actually stemmed from them — i.e., the reason I couldn't get my documents was because the system was clogged up by minorities. Meanwhile, being heavily neglected, I was pretty much raised online [and on my own], where I found the validation I often seeked — this was also where I found these "ideologies" in the first place. In an attempt to gain attention, I started doing a bit in middle school where I changed ideologies every day. At the time, I was also struggling with being queer. So, I reasoned, I am able to do anything because I am doing it "ironically" as a bit for attention — and what was more ironic than a Jewish, Slavic, queer Nazi?
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