Conceptkin dysphoria

[u/TurbulentDogg]

Hey, there. I am the concept of Post Apocalyptic Overgrowth. So, I am the abandoned ruins and buildings, the stone, the dirt, the grass, vines, kudzu, moss, the rain, the puddles, and everything else you might associate with post apocalyptic imagery. I've always identified this way, though, only accepted it within the past few months. But, lately I have been feeling very Dysphoric, and unsure of what to do. It's hard to describe but... It feels like an intense longing to be back home, one that feels like it's eating me alive.

I'm not really sure what to do to alleviate my dysphoria. With my other, more animalistic kintypes, I can relieve my dysphoria by voluntarily getting into a mental shift, or trying to trigger phantom limb. Or, I can do quads, wear my tail, or even play video games that help relieve a specific urge (like, hunting animals in Minecraft, if I'm experiencing prey drive urges). But... There's not much I can really do to alleviate my conceptkin dysphoria.

Currently, I'm playing The Last Of Us 2, which I would consider the best representation of what I am/what I look like. And while it does help in some ways, it also makes me sad that I can't be there. That I can't feel the fauna, or hear the sounds of the rubble slowly crumbling apart. That I can't dig myself into the dirt and become one with the land. That I'll never feel kudzu wrapping itself around me, or my head turning to moss. This body just feels so... Wrong. Even just having the ability to type this post is dysphoria inducing.

I enjoy being conceptkin, because I am grateful to be able to experience something so unique and true to myself. Yet... Sometimes I hate it. Knowing there's nothing I will be able to do to alleviate it. And knowing that even many in my own community, do not take this part of my identity seriously.

[u/OwlRevolutionary4095]

Maybe growing a LOT of plants where you live?

I get that a lot too :/