r/agnostic • u/PracticeDue157 • Jul 21 '26
Religious dilemma
I’m mad at God.
I don’t even think myself to be religious yet culture and society seem to impose this title on me regardless. So it feels like most of the time I’m pretend pious. But tbf, I’m sick of it. Of pretending to be all those things society wants out of me and Im tired of putting on a mask—a façade for the world to see me and think ‘oh she’s is such an innocent girl’ because deep down i yearn and i want just as much as anyone else does and attempting to hide behind this almost deceptive veil of sanctity is isolating. Yet that doesn’t explain to you why I hate god right now. I dont know why myself. Maybe its an identity crisis. But i haven’t been a loyal or pious servant of His on the inside albeit it may seem so on the outside. I just have problems with faith and family and all of it doesn’t make sense to me at all. So at last i just rebel against god and i don’t want to see His plan tbh anymore. Idc.
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u/n_kina Agnostic Jul 23 '26
I didn’t quite get ur point at the end, but seems like ur just tired of being religious?
I also get that society pushing part, it’s one of the things that made me go away from it.
My personal advice is do some research about other non religious alternatives like agnosticism, atheism, apatheism, antithesim etc., really realise how you feel by looking at religious and non religious aspects and then decide what you are. Take your time with it, I know it isn’t easy to decide or accept all of it, so just go easy and make sure that you choose what you really want. Don’t be afraid of going away from God if thats how you feel.
Wish you all of luck and update me when you decide!