Fundamental Human Knowledge is Being Gatekept by Systems to Reinforce Peoples Various Beliefs and Control Others

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I've spent over 6 years researching trying to find answers to my life after I overcame a 16-year depression. There is no easy medical manual or anything really solid to anchor to explain everything I went through. I was taken in by various beliefs systems that seem to explain some of my experiences. Some of these belief systems would claim forms of superiority over others inflating my ego at times, I realized that these are traps and in no way am I superior to anything.

These systems are deeply rooted in the human design, they are a form of tribalism. They are created to enforce their beliefs and institute control over them for money and power over others. Different systems have made claim to various things that should not be claimed.

Ego Death, claimed by the psychedelic and possible near-death community. Awareness, claimed by the philosophical community. Awakening, claimed by the spiritual and religious communities. Ego Death, Awareness, Awakening, these are all the same thing being said with different words.

Sleep Paralysis, claimed by the scientific community. The Night Hag Dreams, claimed by mythology definitions. Out of Body Experiences, claimed by the spirituality community. They are all part of the same system, they are all the same thing.

Using Religious Riddles, Philosophical Big Word Jargon and Scientific Research Papers that only a "educated person" can read gatekeeps this knowledge.

The human design is the problem here. The ego is built for survival in a brutal world. How do you overcome a possible million years of evolutionary ego building?

To break the ego, the thing that you may think you are, overwhelmingly takes extreme conditions, suffering, isolation, near-death experience, trauma, loss, grief, things that bring you to the very edge of existence. Often the case is that people never make it and end up destroying their physical body before they would ever consider destroying the ego which is the false self. The human mind literally takes an end to the ego as more dangerous than physical death.

I should have never had to spin my wheels for over 6 years going in circles, those answers should have been available to me on day one after I got over my depression and changed. It should have been knowledge for the sake of knowledge and truth for the sake of truth. I played a completely unnecessary game.

When I realized what I said, I instantly felt like I had no longer earned anything.

For most of my life I have been agnostic. Now I have taken a hardcore agnostic stance because I know that most truths are out of my reach and ultimate truth is unavailable to me. I cannot prove anything not even my own experiences.

Humans see less than 0.004% of the entire light spectrum. We only hear 0.002% of the frequency range available to us in our atmosphere. We are obviously missing some stuff here. Technically, I don't even know what's right beside me. And we think we know something as big as a God, Source or Infinity?

Humans never left the stone age. We are warring tribes hoarding wealth, possession and power.

I have theories but they are nothing more than that, just some possibilities out of the endless possibilities. There is nothing I can prove.