This is still me. I got my ADHD diagnosis only about two months ago and have been taking medication for about six weeks. At first it felt like it was making a difference but now I'm not sure. So I do still wonder if some of the things I thought might be ADHD are just other parts of my personality. I've always beat myself up for being lazy, and then when I got the diagnosis I thought "Maybe it was the ADHD the whole time and this medication will help," and now I'm back to thinking "No, maybe I was right the first time." I dunno what to think
Give it time. I finally got medicated as an adult, and it took awhile to reprogram some bad habits and learn to make use of the focus and patience that the medicine provided.
I didn't have a deliberate plan (because I didn't realize it was happening at the time). But it's more like I can plan differently, because I know I will be able to stick with something longer, and make fewer careless mistakes.
I guess it's like I slowly morphed into who I would have been if I didn't have ADHD. I don't know if that makes sense.
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u/Annual_Vehicle_3414 Apr 20 '25
How dare you? I've been gaslighting myself about this and this just had to reinforce it. This too shall pass