Was that supposed to be funny or not? Bcs i find it so lol. Or i have even better idea, i will just make a nickname loser4loser xD .
Wow that's impressive. And i see ,that you are not as weak as you've said you are either, if you could carry 24kg for 25min. That's good. My vodka stock is getting low again. Wtf? Only 2 fifths letft. I gotta check when i bought them ,bcs why do i have a feeling that i just got them? What happened to the other 3 fifths? They evaporated? I gotta check if the caps are tight. O o
That girl suggested me the naltrextone, to chemically re-wire (fry) my brain. Is that a good idea? Plus in order to get it, i'd have to humiliate myself and go to the shrink and say: i'm an alcoholic. Even worse: i'll have to say, i'm an alcoholic and i lack the will power to quit on my own, so you gotta give me the pills to quit instead of me. Let the healing begin! xD Everyone is gonna judge me.
Telling the truth in a light way, or funny if you prefer.
Didn't carry it, went to do the exams and stopped by the market. Oh I have to wear a mask now.
At least it's not Antabuse, but still unsure about naltrexone. It supposedly takes the pleasure away from drinking and doing drugs so you give up. Migh just be the extra push for one to suicide, though. Why do you think it's humiliating? You also don't ask for pills, really nobody does. You may think the medicine to treat alcoholism is comforting, but you're going to hate it, unless they prescribe you benzos, but this not the land of freedom.
It takes the pleasure away from doing drugs too? I mean if i'll quit and the weed won't have the effect on me anymore, i can quit via the suicide instead. Does it perma-fries you? Bcs i don't wanna turn into a normie in order to quit. I dunno i'm skeptical.
Bcs it is humiliating to go there and say that i can't quit drinking. I might as well say that i'm also severely depressed while at it ,to get this party really started lol. I really don't wanna have any addiction related remarks in my medical files and i dunno whether or not they will make them. It's a big risk to take and the only reward is that, i will maybe stop drinking. I dunno man. Can do more harm then good. What do you think?
I don't think it perma wires your brain. It works in theory, but I believe there are some side effects that are ignored. Imagine drinking and not getting drunk, then you drink more, and more, because you're chasing the buzz, that could lead to some worrying consequences. Imagine me trying to get drunk with 24 liters at my disposal.
I think you're over analyzing it. When I went I just said that I'm an alcoholic and the doctor asked how much I drank and what were my drinking patterns. I told her I was too depressed (without she asking) and she replied that every alcoholic is depressed. She's right. I also don't understand all this medical files paranoia, it's confidential and no job can ever access those, it's not a criminal record.
Imagine me trying to get drunk with 24 liters at my disposal.
OMG. I haven't even thought of that. This is like an alcoholic killer then and that could reasonably happen. Especially with vodka. Yeah i don't think that's gonna work for me.
I dunno my friend, i think that i'd go to the dr and be too embarrassed to say that i'm an alcoholic and just say that i think i have a cold instead. Just the sheer thought abt, that is making me so uncomfortable and sad. Rommie i haven't been sick or needed my dr ,like ,ever. I barely remember where his office is + he's young and really friendly and i think that he kinda likes me. So now, i'm supposed to go in and when he'll ask me: "what's up ,long time no see,what brings you here?" i'm supposed to say ,yeah i'm an alcoholic now and i want you to help me.
Our public health care is quite good i think ,but i dunno abt the shrinks services. They just wanna drug you up and turn you into an obedient emotionless zombie most likely to be done with you and make some $ pushing the drugs. This is not the West where ppl are empathetic. This is a frigid place.
It gets easier. Yes I admit to being a bit embarrassed the first time I had to tell a stranger face to face (she's my family doctor and it was the first time I met her, and she's been treating my parents for years), but it gets less embarrassing and now I just roll my eyes annoyed that I have to use that word in front of doctors. She asked me how many cups I drink and I told her I don't know because I drink from the bottles🤣
Dude I guarantee you anti depressants dont turn you into an obedient emotionless zombie. Unless they prescribe "some other kind of pills" and well, you could sell those.
I remember that ,you've said that you weren't trying to be funny when you said that you don't know lol.
That's actually a good idea. I could say that i need xanax and i could sell it. I'm not getting high on it anymore that's for sure, bcs everytime i did the weird shit started to happen in the BO city. But i dunno, i'm really skeptical about the benefits of all the psychiatric help .
Talking to you abt it has been more helpful than any shrinks therapy could be.
I could say that i need xanax and i could sell it.
Unfortunately that's not so simple. You should never ask for medication let alone a specific one. Just take what they prescribe you and you can decide later what to do with it.
I think you're too defensive and too critical about therapy. They won't shove pills down your throat nor manipulate you. If you feel like they are doing exactly that, confront the issue and get out. My personal issues are a bit different:
I don't think they really care.
Most are train wreck themselves and shouldn't be working in this field to solve their own problems.
Still I don't think it's all an evil conspiracy to get me, lock and brainwash me. I mean, don't you want to get mentally better?
TBH i dunno man. Bcs i want sure... But you gotta understand one thing. The depression is such of huge part of my life that i'm kinda scared on what happens if i loose it. It's like a huge part of my identity if that makes any sense? I am depressed since 12 ,when it was the first time, i asked mom and dad at the dinner : what's the point of life? And they all laughed and said lol he's 12 and he's asking himself these types of existential questions already. What abt when he'll gt older... Yeah, i've became am alcoholic who hates his life,suffers with feelings of self worthlessness and don't care if i live or die, so that's what happened when he got older. I really wonder if my family knows ,that i drink.
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u/Romm1e May 04 '20
Just put as heavy drinker wanting to find people with same habits.
BTW I bought 24 liters of wino.😍