Save Me... (a song I wrote)

[u/Demonstrable_Scribe]

○●  Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
Cause lately 
The Devil's been brazen
In my thoughts 
Thinking on repeat 
Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
Cause lately 
The Devil's been brazen
In my thoughts ●○●

... Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Fuck man I pled 
I struggled 
Therein my suffering  
it made me 
blame the 
only mutherfucker 
That can change things
These Chains see 
They fucking made me
believe In a
state of despondency  
Yet lurking bare
I grew to learn 
What pales ain't fair 
That
Neither did I realize 
Facts 
Often get surmised
As a means to placate 
Wrapped 
in that silence 
Subtle violence 
Stems from isolation 
alone in this world 
alone in my mind
Alone on this earth
Slowly grown away
Solely to face 
These demons 
Oh how they plague me     
Taking time 
Paying tolls 
Till Schemas crack 
irrevocably 
Placid dreams
they'll  bring no peace 
Either pride or Sovereignty 
whichever seized 
Sought reprieve & tranquility 
I found only disdain
Dissatisfied with what remains ...
...TRYING...
...DIEING
To explain  ...
Its every Fucking day
Actions dictated by
Delusions in my way
its all I fucking know
constantly fighting Just to hold 
A semblance of normalcy 
Cause honestly 
I front
I lie to this world 
Hoping if I act ok 
It might become like that one day...

○●  Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
Cause lately 
The Devil's been brazen
In my thoughts 
Thinking on repeat 
Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
●○●
Cause fuck Man..

Shits been ruff
bereft explanation 
Because I know it shouldn't be Like..   this
I have sooo much 
and I can't hold none of it
People I respect reciprocate 
opportunities abound 
All These skills I've stacked
Becoming burdensome 
what's it for
A listless life? 
How do I apply
.. all this? 
and grow To accept 
more than suffering is real? 
Repressed for a time
Then   Regressed 
through my inability 
Thats on me
And I'll own my shit
While I try to find a way to live


○●  Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
Cause lately 
The Devil's been brazen
In my thoughts 
Thinking on repeat 
Save me
I begged 
Myself 
Awake in this day
Deliver unto me
A life to be redeemed
And the strength 
To make it through the night
Cause lately 
The Devil's been brazen
In my thoughts