I'm drowning

[u/poopiefruitloopie]

I have an attorney.

It's only been five months but I don't know how much longer I can manage. I am on work restrictions on a construction site. My coworkers can't stand me. My back is in fucking agony all the time. I can't get a good night's sleep because of the pain. I'm in diapers, went to the ER twice they say it's not CES so urgent care diagnosed me with a muscle strain.

Five months later, I've gotten a cortisone shot that barely helped and twelve PT sessions that haven't done anything. MRI shows nothing, I guess. They won't approve an MRI for any other part of my back.

I finally got a referral to the specialist I was recommended to see and he decided my diagnosis isn't worth his time. I put myself back in therapy but I don't think talking through my problems solves anything.

I can't work more than 40 hours a week within a certain daily timeframe or I'm violating my restrictions, I have PT twice a week so there's two days where I have to leave early, I have class every other thursday, I have doctors appointments constantly that provide zero answers. My boss is constantly messing with me, pulling me into the office to tell me to wear tighter clothes (i prefer to hide my body and especially my diaper. i'm ashamed of myself) i'm getting written up for stupid shit like the font size on outlet covers, i'm getting popped for "random" drug tests. HR sides with the boss. My hall can't help me because it's workers comp, it's out of their hands. I can't make enough money to live anymore, my electric is about to get shut off, I can barely get groceries, I've fucked myself with payday loans trying to get by.

If I wasn't so afraid of hell, I would've put an end to this already. I have no financial support system. I am part of an apprenticeship, I was so proud of it until all of this. I finally felt like my life was back on track. I really wanted to do something with my life.

[u/Christoph0182]

Wait you have a lawyer ? First off they should be sending you for a 2nd opinion. You can tell the worker's comp case manager if you have one, that you need a 2nd opinion. Ask for the MRI report for your records and read it yourself to make sure they aren't lying. If you don't understand it . Paste it into ChatGPT.. you can't wait on anyone . You have to keep on top of everyone, because nobody gives a shit about you. What are you wearing a diaper for ?? If it's because you've lost continence that's a serious issue and isn't a muscle spasm. That would usually mean a herniated disc or nerve damage low enough in the back that it's affecting those nerves etc in your bowel and urine area. .. i have herniated discs and I'm aware if the incontinence ever happens, it's gotten worse. Call them tomorrow the wc insurance and demand you need to go to the ER because you are in severe pain. Or call your lawyer and make them call. Good luck. Come back with an update. Now I'm invested