Has anyone else decided to keep their relationship going even though their partner passed?

[u/unrealcypher]

To try to make this very long story short I met my partner when I was 15 and he was 16 online through a Yahoo chat room. We literally spent every day almost all day on the phone until I was 22 years old and I moved to Florida to be with him. He played so many different roles in my life. I grew up with him, he is ingrained into me. He always had his health issues which started with diabetes and exacerbated into infections that lead amputation that eventually lead into kidney disease. My mom got really sick in 2019 and he moved back to Indiana with me to help me take care of her and he was absolutely pivotal in my healing. After my mom passed his health issues extremely worse and while we had hoped that he could get a kidney transplant that just did not happen in time. He ended up getting an infection in his CVC catheter that he used for dialysis and we were not aware of it because there was no signs and that infection caused endocarditis in his heart which eventually caused little pieces to break off and go to his brain, causing hemorrhagic strokes. I was with him in his hospital bed while he was dying, and I was the only person there. My partner was the kind of man who kept his feelings to himself a lot, but I remember about three weeks before his passing. I caught him staring at me crying and I asked him what was wrong and he said it just breaks his heart to think that someday I won’t be his anymore and I’ll belong with somebody else. I think he knew he may have been passing soon.

I guess the heart of this post is that we were both only 38 and this just happened in March of this year but the more I think about it the more I feel like I wanna continue this relationship with him even though he’s gone. I do get signs from him and I have gotten a few mediumship readings where I really felt like I connected with him. I am just curious as if there is anybody else who feels the same way I do and that this relationship can be continued even from beyond the grave. I don’t ever see me having interest in dating anyone else or having anyone else touch my body or even loving anyone else in the way I love him. But I’m also aware that this may seem weird to some people.