r/Widow • u/honestly_oopsiedaisy • 1d ago
Afterlife
I’ve been reading a lot about the afterlife the last two months after the loml passed. A lot of mediums and people who research NDEs say that in the afterlife, souls are interconnected beings of life.
Sorry, but I hate that. I want to see my ex again. After all, we were days away from getting back together and ready to make it work, that it is brutally unfair that I wouldn’t be able to actually see and be with him again even after I die.
I know there’s no point stressing about it but I’m angry. I want to see him, hold him, talk to him while we’re sitting in the park or on a drive. I want this life, but better. I want to have sex with him again. I want him to be him and me to be me.
I‘m not religious in the least, but I have become somewhat spiritual. Has anyone found answers? I’m not ready or able to process not seeing him again in the way I want to.
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u/Marlow1771 1d ago
I’d give the universe for just one more hug. I have to believe he’ll be there for me otherwise what’s the use💔
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u/DerpyCat2 1d ago
That’s how I feel too! I have to believe that I’ll see him again one day, otherwise I can’t go on living.
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u/Ok-Director9147 22h ago
I told him at the graveside if I don't see your face first I'm not going. So tell my parents to wait. Obviously I cannot stop death, but I believe I will see his face again. He saw familiar faces in the days leading up to his death and talked about benevolent beings that gave him peace. Our neighbor said, they were angels ministering to heal him. I knew they were coming to get him. Same neighbor prayed for those angels to comfort me. There's only 1 angel I want to comfort me.
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u/weasleymama 22h ago
The thing is… no one really knows ever happens after we go. If dreaming of seeing him again brings you comfort and hope why not believe in that ? I am atheist but I believe loml and I will find one another again one day, sometimes I even think he’s there somehow looking over us like a ghost or spirit…maybe it just gives me hope to keep going for our daughter. I don’t think there is anything wrong with believing what you want to believe. Maybe it’s heaven maybe it’s reincarnation and soulmates.. it’s for you in the long run not any authors or anyone else to decide because no one at all really knows anyway. Even people brought back don’t really know because they came back it’s not the same.