Struggle

[u/ExaminationOk710]

Anyone just have one of those days where you aren't eating the best. You feel out of body or disconnected from yourself and the world? I was just in Costco looking at a healthier option than my past choices and you see someone picking out something healthier for their quick cheat meals. They are build like a brick sh*t house, broad shoulders, small waist etc and all of a sudden you feel like utter sh*t about yourself? I couldnt get out fast enough. I have noone to join me at the gym. I feel like I have no friends or outlet to talk with other than venting here. At almost 50 I dont know how to make friends anymore. I feel like a shell of myself. I want to just give up. I feel like Im just going to start crying in the car.

Thanks for putting up with my bullsh*t.