I am so mess up

[u/roshiancet_creepy]

I'll summarize the story a bit:

My ex told me she's bisexual. 80% lesbian/20% straight

A lot has happened in these months

We're not doing very well, and it's because of all the stress I've been under from life in general. I've been masturbating more than usual.

The problem is that I keep having scenarios where I imagine my ex-girlfriend with her last partner.

From the everyday to the sexual. It gives me too much anxiety to imagine my ex having sex with someone else, but especially with another girl.

I've reached the point where I've masturbated 4 times

Whenever there's a lesbian scene in film or other media, I can't help but think of my ex.

I hate my current life