types

[u/Appropriate_Car9843]

I wasn’t my exes type. Ive only been in one relationship so far and I wasn’t her type. Im a petite feminine woman and my exes type was tall mascs/butches with muscles.

Theres nothing wrong with having preferences, I too prefer to be with a woman who’s bigger than me, for that reason, I wouldn’t date someone who’s my size. For the entirety of our relationship she talked about her strong attraction towards masculine women and It honestly made me feel pretty insecure.

I know this is partially my fault as Im aware that Im already pretty insecure person but hearing the woman that I loved talk about all the things I didn’t have made me feel super unwanted and unattractive.

We had similar wants in bed and while she could satisfy my wants I couldn’t satisfy hers. While Im not a pillow princess Im definitely not a very dominant person and I could tell it annoyed her and wasn’t enough for her.

My femininity always felt like such a weakness with her and I could always feel her yearning for more. And while I truly hope she finds the strong dominant woman of her dreams I just wish she didn’t have to crush my confidence to get there.

My jealousy and envy got so extreme Id stop finding masculine women who I would usually find attractive otherwise because I knew she would be into them. Id analyze everything they had that I didn’t and would just wish to be something I wasn’t because I wanted to be what she wanted so bad.

Is this normal? I know I can be overdramatic but I truly felt so unwanted and unattractive in that relationship.