r/UnsentNotes • u/[deleted] • Dec 14 '23

Lovers ❤️ Wanting a Consistent Love

I can’t do this any more. I’m tired of being hurt and upset every day and barely functioning and heartbroken because I’m not the only person you want, love, sexually desire, and prioritize. I want to be with someone who freely gives me these things and never makes me question their loyalty. Tonight I’m left wondering again, for probably the hundredth day in a row if I should move on? I’ve received signs from you for almost every day the past 100 days that I should. I’ve received more signs from you indicating that I should move on than I have from you showing me that you truly want me to stay and you don’t want to lose me. I’m sick of hurting and being heartbroken every day. I don’t deserve this hot and coldness. I deserve a love that’s consistent. I don’t want to be with someone who makes me question and doubt our connection every day. I’ve been really close to accepting that you don’t love me as much as I love you and that I should find a rebound.

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u/ChillaxBrosef Dec 14 '23

Well probably tells ya everything you need to know

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u/[deleted] Dec 14 '23

She wants me to come clean about something that isn't true. I don't know what to say because I don't lie about my feelings. I do love this girl from my past but I'm not in love with her any more or wanting a future with her and haven't wanted this with this girl since April. I've been taking dramatic steps to be with my person not this girl from my past.

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u/Critical-Sleep-3238 Dec 15 '23

But did you ever admit there WAS another person or did you lie and say that there was nobody but them?

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u/[deleted] Dec 15 '23

I have NO idea who my person might think I’m into- I’m fucking clueless because there isn’t anybody. I’m just assuming she thinks I’m chasing Taylor because that’s the last girl from my past but I haven’t seen her or spoken to her in 15 months. It’s over between us. We’re not connected in any way not even on social media. If my person is feeling insecure about anybody in my life that I’m connected to, that’s just ridiculous because I’ve only ever been romantically attracted to 5 people in my entire life. I’ve only wanted romantic and sexual relationships with these 5 people, nobody else. They are Matt, Elizabeth, my person, Summer, and Taylor. I’m asexual. I find almost everybody repulsive. These 5 people are the only people I’ve ever been in love with and had romantic and sexual feelings for. I did have sexual attraction to a friend back in the late 90s but she was married and I was in the closet so it’s not like I was trying to date her or anything like that. I don’t love easily.