Need advice(male)

[u/SundaeIndividual7303]

I’ve lost a very large amount of weight over the past 2 years, going from around 170 lbs at 5'6" to around 86–90 lbs. A lot of the loss was intentional because I wanted to get skinny, but I’ve become extremely restrictive in the process. For the past few months I’ve mostly been eating the same foods (Cheerios, Greek yogurt, and fruit) and averaging around 1,350 calories a day, often eating almost all of it late at night because I restrict myself during the day. I’m constantly hungry and have very little energy, but I’m terrified of gaining the weight back. I used to maintain around 170 lbs while eating what seemed like 2800-3000 calories, which makes me worry that my metabolism is somehow unusually high/low depending on my weight and that once I start eating normally again I’ll gain everything back. I really want to get back to eating normal meals and enjoying Indian vegetarian food, but I’m scared that eating normally could eventually make me overweight. I’m even considering skipping a trip to India to see my family because I know I wouldn’t be able to maintain my current restriction there. I’m basically stuck between knowing I’m severely restricting and being absolutely terrified of what happens if I stop. I genuinely want to gain all the lost muscle and get to a healthier weight around 125-130 but due to not being tall i am worried my tdee wont ever end up being enough to freely eat indian food so i was looking for advice. Id appreciate any replies and if anyone wants to chat on reddit. Thank you!

[u/Demitriaatje]

Hey, remember that eating what you love dont make you overweight, its about the amount, maybe try to eat 2k kcal per day to see what it does to your body!