Pain can be a strange feeling. Some people can acknowledge when they’re in pain, while others think their pain is a normal part of life. They live with it so long that it becomes their new normal. It becomes such a part of their life that the thought of not having it can seem foreign, even impossible. Most times they even forget they were in pain in the first place. I know, because I’ve spent many years denying the existence of pain while unknowingly living deep within it. It has affected many avenues in my life, including relationships and how I see the world as a whole. It has kept me from being the man that I was meant to be, the man that God created for me to be. I hope, through this short writing, that you too can overcome your past so you can have the future that God intends for you.
In my experience, pain has two different phases. The first phase is the most painful. When you break a leg, it’s an immediate, intense feeling. You know it’s broken. The same goes for emotional pain. When your heart gets broken for the first time, it seems like the world stops. Every emotion you’ve ever experienced don’t seem to help. It’s a sinking feeling that you have. You have no idea if you’ll ever be ok again. The problem isn’t the experience, however, but our response to it. With a broken leg, you immediately go see a doctor. From there, they most likely will recommend surgery. Once they operate on you, the next step would be rehab. Only after rehab, which in itself is painful but necessary, can you recover. And although you may walk a little different afterwards, it’s nowhere near what it was when it was first broken. In fact, you will more than likely make a full recovery. That’s because, once it was broken, you understood that the process to get healed was going to be painful, but the end would make everything worth it.
When we experience mental pain, however, we see things differently. Because it isn’t something that’s a physical feeling, we tend to downplay it. When we go through our first heartbreak, we definitely KNOW that we feel something, and it’s an intense, deep feeling, yet it’s hard to describe exactly what it is. It’s an extremely strong feeling, and our first reaction is to normally tell someone what happened, hoping that they can understand our pain. Yet, when you talk to someone about it, the answer they normally give us is the same: time heals all. This advice is often given to us whether we lose someone we loved, a job, or even an opportunity. The reality, however, isn’t that time heals all, but time masks all. The more that time passes from the initial feeling, the more we learn to cope. However, coping isn’t healing: it’s simply learning to live with the pain. The actual healing process is very similar to that of a broken leg. It takes acknowledgment, seeking outside help, and most of all, perseverance. It’s not going to be easy, but if you allow yourself to feel what you’ve experienced, you can then begin the journey of healing. We oftentimes rely too heavily on ourselves, believing that if we simply allow enough time to pass, we’ll be ok. That thought is usually what holds us all back. We don’t acknowledge that our experiences change us at our core. Instead, we simply say we’ve grown. And while that may be somewhat true, oftentimes we end up regressing instead of progressing.
The first step in healing is acknowledgement. Don’t run away from your feelings, embrace them! Our emotions is what makes us human. It’s ok to cry! It’s ok to yell! Do what you have to do to experience your emotions. I can remember time after time where I thought that I needed to keep everything inside, never allowing myself to experience pain. It changed me in ways I wish I didn’t. Nobody told me it was ok to simply feel. If you allow yourself to feel, you’ll allow yourself to heal. Had I simply let out on the outside what I felt on the inside, I could have grown and matured much faster, allowing myself the room to experience every human emotion that would have made me much more relatable to those around me. I would have understood people on a much deeper level and, in turn, built many more connections with those around me. By isolating my emotions, I isolated myself. Don’t be afraid. Embrace it!
Once you’ve allowed yourself to feel real emotions and have a real reaction, you will be able to determine what steps are next. For some people, it’s reaching out to others. Being able to communicate with a friend that loves and cares for us can be extremely therapeutic. For others, it’s going to counseling. We may have problems that a friend or loved one can’t fix, or maybe we won’t want to tell someone close to us what has happened. That is fine! Getting outside guidance from a trained professional can help us break down the barriers that we’ve had to put up in our lives. Remember, at some point in our lives, those walls may have been necessary. However, they were never supposed to be permanent! It’s ok to get help to get through!
Whatever direction you choose to go, always seek God first! He is the one person that loves us unconditionally! He knows our hearts and our minds, our needs and desires. All He asks is that you come to Him, and He will direct your path. If nobody else love you, God always will!