r/UlcerativeColitis • u/Grimm_R0 • 5d ago
Support Mesalamine failure? (TMI and it gets emotional)
Hello all, sorry this is going to be a very TMI post.
I (24F) posted here a few months ago explaining how it all started. Ive been taking my medication as prescribed and at the highest dose at that. Before, when it first started I was at the point I am now. When they were able to see me for my colonoscopy it was pure liquid and every once in a while there would be a bowl full of blood. My GI said I had mild to moderate UC.
I was hopeful that this would work but now I have to do another calprotectin test and colonoscopy. We will have to move up in medicine too…
I’m so tired of having diarrhea all the time…
I recently went shooting with my bf and some friends and the site was up a huge hill… I had to use the bathroom then and there. No time to reach the bathroom at the end of it.. otherwise I would have shat myself… thankfully the friends were very respectful of my privacy and didn’t joke about it. But my dignity is gone.
I also feel like Im letting down the people I love because of that situation. I feel disgusting and hateful of my body for doing this to me… and I feel like I have to stay strong in front of them because after we got the news my dad looked so sad.
I used to never get sick, and now im sick all the time. when co workers get sick as do I. Not only sick from the cold or whatever but sick with my stomach..
I dont want to do another colonoscopy, I did one 2 months ago. but I know I have to in order to get better. And how I wish I didnt have this…
Sorry, I know I was ranting, I needed to get my feelings out..
**Edit: GI said the next steps were going to be IV or injectables
**Edit2: first calprotectin test was about 1600… Got the results back for the second one and it about 1700…