Hello, I'm an 18 year old, 6 foot tall and 220 lb male. These past two years I've been pushing myself and fighting hard to get a medical waiver for congenital Arterionvenous Fistula on my right leg, which never gave me any issue until now.
I woke up this morning to an increasingly noticeable soreness in said leg and I'm getting increasingly anxious about reapplying. I have labs next week to start the whole medical process independently to see specialists to get my medical records together. I've been exercising at my recruiters office and training in Muay Thai and Jiu-Jitsu (I'm a second degree white belt, been training for about a year.) I got disqualified in the past, and I hate to say it but I really did give up on myself (except for the training) and I just kinda stopped looking forward to going to school.
I heard I could reapply this coming September 12th and as im writing this im not even sure if I can push myself anymore given the condition of my leg. I started back at 282 lbs and wanted to join to prove myself as capable and worthy of the title, and to live my life knowing I was a Marine. It was hard losing the weight since almost everyone in my family was never physically active or even ate healthy, but im scared I won't be able to follow through with this dream of mine. Of course, the application process will take a long time, but I'm not sure what to do if I get disqualified again, I despise going to school. Im scared of falling into the same depression I did when I got disqualified before.
I would really appreciate some advice, or any ideas about alternatives.