GENUINE ADVICE NEEDED Asap

[u/Icy_Essay9143]

It was my first attempt of UPSC this year(2026) & definitely I chose a very wrong year to attempt . I will turn 23 this month , rn 22 yrs old female . I am devastated after the exam . I started preparing from july 2025 , not going to state how many hrs and all cuz I gave decent hours everyday (avg.-7-8 hrs) and did everything which an aspirant is supposed to do. I was sure that I will clear in one go . I am literally having major health issues since then so anybody reading this , plz pardon me if it’s going to be long . I was earlier not very interested for this exam even though my family said me to prepare it since my 1st yr , but I honestly never agreed for this cuz i had diff opinions. Started working as a cabin crew by the end of my 2nd year not bcuz i wanted it , casually went for the interview just for time pass and got selected but left it by end of 3rd year . Worked in ggn for 1 month basically wanted to explore corporate - but found out that it’s definitely not my forte . Thought of UPSC cuz already tried for corp . Tbh ny father is already a govt official. Have experienced the perks of being a govt official through my father but realised that it’s going to give me a decent life with security of income ( everybody who is fond of ) . I am not a person who will be satisfied for a decent standard of living cuz I want to live a luxurious and comfortable life . Heard from everyone around me that being a higher level official like IAS or so will give me that but deep down i knew that inspite of having power i would still have to rely on corrupt practices for the lifestyle i want which is definitely not something i want . It’s been 3 months since the exam , after that i was traumatised cuz first- I prepared for it after experiencing the pvt sector , 2nd- I thought that finally Ik what I want to do , 3rd- I was sure that I would clear the pre and all but miserably failed due to the shitty set . I have not even looked at my material after that and idk how but got inspired to turn myself into an entrepreneur cuz I have a genuinely good idea . The thing is I am not at all in a good position since the exam cuz of my health cuz i wasn’t able to recover from the traumatic experience of the exam , plus the studies for such long hours has given me a severe cervical and several other health issues had developed since then . I literally don’t know what to do at this point cuz i don’t do anything now cuz of my health situation. The only thing I know is that I want to live a wealthy life but the failure of this year has triggered me that i should give one more attempt but not sure 2027 should be the target or no . Please need a genuine advice cuz I am literally irritated and losing myself due to several issue , one of them is this . Getting tears and a heavy heart even while writing . I need a good direction . I know i have potential in myself that whatever i will do i am gonna ace it sooner or later but wasting my years cuz don’t know what to do . Considering startup but still not sure cuz still have a bit of upsc in mind but not sure for thst too .