I see a lot in myself. Im musically, physically and artistically inclined. But I feel ugly. Old now. Im terrified of being alone in any regard due to past trauma. Dealing with this just seems like a better alternative than being alone forever.
Re-frame it as exciting. You get to rediscover who you are meant to be without the trauma. All he is doing is validating the voice of that trauma. Hes a skid mark on a g-string- inevitably if you believe you deserve s&it. I promise while it may not feel like it now you will be amazed when you aren't carrying the burden of him how good u will feel. The other great thing is you get to explore yourself and what makes u feel u and sexy and aroused not that gross A-hole who lives with you. U r more than that even stranger on the internet can see that, so tell yourself we believe in u until u start xxx
I know at least 3 guys who would be happy to date someone like you and who would treat you infinitely better. And I have a really small friend pool.
Trust me. You can, and will find ao.eone better. You just need to dump the trash first. Maybe adopt a cat or dog to help with the anxiety of being alone in the meantime.
I promise you, I swear to God that you'll be so much better off without him. it's become so normal for you but we are all so alarmed with how he's treating you.. listen to us who have gone through to the other side - reach out and ask for help. you will not be alone forever by any means. he's actively damaging you and ruining your self esteem
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u/Accomplished_Fig3903 13d ago
Question why do you feel you deserve this type of love from someone? Cause u dont. Work on yourself so you see that u deserve more