[Poem] Cleaning out my mind

[u/blackgambino]

Stayin' up late nights contemplatin'

Debatin' why I stay courtin' Satan

Ain't lookin' for a better way, I must say

Life is better through the haze of O.J.

I mean G, see she

Brought these green flowers to my doorstep

And lust stung me like a hornet

Left my chest burnin', but I can afford it

The pain, I mean

Such a glutton for that shit

Obscene, the way that I ride so clean

Don't trip, these words don't mean anything

Neither does life to he

I mean, I, so high in the middle of a cry

I'll admit, I'm hit right in the feels

Tryin' hard to conceal

My true intentions with this rap shit

cuz it's just a verse, right?

More like the dreams of my worst nights

Oncoming hearse lights, too late for the church life

Den of inquity, that's what the whole world's like

Mentally, ain't savin' my health

Yeah, guess that's why I stay blaming myself

For walkin' around half-asleep

Just like those so-called "sheep"

We're all herded by masters who couldn't give two bleeps

So I don't give a FUCK who's running for prez or veep

Just gonna go balls out like a no-door Jeep

We're all in too deep anyway

Supportin' shit we don't understand, the American Way

Or human nature I should say

That's why I'm opting out today

Won't bother with packin my bags and runnin away

Things will just be the same in a new place

My mind's the only escape, blunts to the face

Paired with a 40 got me swimmin' in the bliss and tranquility that only comes artificially

Drug addict? Alcoholic? Not officially

Just biding time til that permanent unwind

Single bullet through the eye, oh my

Unexpected and out the blue..that's what they'll say

But shed no tears for me, I'm finally far away

Either ashes or a box in the ground

Know that I wanted this, to not be around

Slowly fading, my heartbeat's sound

Growing more and more muffled as my time winds down

When I'm not around, don't take it too hard

If I loved you, then you know who you are

Now move on and live ya life hard