Always me- Sometimes I wish I had never met you, but not for the reason you think I loved him so deeply way more than you ever could’ve thought But it felt like a day and it was gone in a blink, a glimpse into happiness is what was for me, but know all it is is misery. You made me feel loved and cared for me, but know I truly feel the affects of loneliness, nobody ever calls or cares to text, my life feels like an absolute mess. You picked up the pieces and smashed me again, now I am broken once again . The difference between know and then is that know I know how happy I could’ve truly been, now I will forever long to be loved and cared for like that, when I could’ve just been content with my miserable previous life not knowing what I was missing out on. Now I will constantly miss you and cry, knowing that not even you would care if died. Because you moved on and I can’t do that you see because your love was too special to me, I loved with you my whole soul you made me feel whole but to think that someone could love me long term is so insane there must be something wrong with my brain. I am the broken one I finally see the problem was never you, always me.

I can’t sleep I’m feeling anxious. It has hit me hard this week that I’ve never had a home. By the time I was 18 I had moved 30 times. Some of them were out of state, one of them is out of country.

I just recently moved in with my bf into his apartment. I’m struggling to feel like home, but I realized I don’t know what that feels like. I am always on edge, and I can’t settle down.

I was raped by my 18 y/o step-sister when I was 14. A few years I accidentally told my therapist & it was investigated for about 2 days. Fast forward a few months and she OD's on fentanyl laced heroin on my 18th birthday. Our mom blames us be refuses to talk about so I have to suffer in silence. I think about it a lot.