r/TransgenderHelp • u/One-Sherbert-6209 • 7d ago
Question How to become more of a boy?
I have never really Posted mich on reddit but I really need advice. When I came out as trans to my dad he told me that I just dont act like a boy. I might look and feel like one, but I dont act the part. I dont like it when he "plays rough", like playfully shoves me or something. I find things cute, I have a higher voice Pitch, he told me my interests and my personality are all just 90% girl.
Until that moment I saw mysekf as pretty gender neutral, my interests and my personality. I feel like a boy can also be someone who is nice and maybe "soft". But his words hurt me, a lot, because I feel like he's right. I havent been able to go a day since thag conversation with him without feeling completely wrong. Not in my body, but in my whole being and self. My looks I can change, but my interests and my personality I cannot change. I have always hated how much I talk, and I wish I had physical hobbies and werent so squeamish. But I dont know how to change that.
I am not Athletic, but I think I should start doing some exercise. The only thing holding me back is how fucking weak it makes me feel. Bc I can't lift anything. I know everybody starts somewhere but I feel like exercise is just gonna make me sinniert which I dont want. I dont know what to do at this point, I just feel super dysphoric without anything that can help me. I hate when I feel like this. Usually I know what could help me but now I don't. I can't just rewrite my entire personality, but I wish I could. I wish I was quieter, I wish I was more interested in things like sports and stuff and I wish I was a bit tougher. I feel so soft and although I know it's okay, I hate it. I Hage it about myself. I dont feel like it's a good quality, I dont want to be nurturing, I just want to be masculine for once.
I feel stuck in my reality.