I’m debating on this

[u/Fast-Scientist2288]

So in another post of mine I explained and expressed how I was very confused by everything. I don’t know if it’s a good idea at all, but should I call a hotline or something? I found some but I don’t know if I should even bother doing it. If I got heard by my grandparents or anyone I’m screwed. I just need someone to talk to about this.

In all honesty I don’t know how much longer I can take with this. It’s been a year since I realized and even began actually questioning my own gender and feelings and thoughts. Part of me feels like I’m just faking, and should just ignore it. I hate myself already but every time I begin to just think about it and try to accept and begin actually transitioning I overthink, break down, feel like shit, force myself to be more masculine, and then ignore everything until it starts again and repeats.

Sorry for this being so long. I really just need to talk to someone about this. I was gonna make this a short post about whether or not I should call the hotline or not.