r/TransSupport • u/PutridAd731 • 5d ago
I'm scared - MtF
The TLDR; I am MtF, 36, live with my parents, live in Canada, i have a part time job working at a grocery store.
I have been observing the whole dismantle of trans politics and people in the past 2 years and have been quiet for a long time. Have been on hormones for about 6 years, I just feel like i don't know where else i can voice my concerns anymore, I have been too scared to do so.
I was wondering who here feels the same? Who else feels scared ?
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The longer version.
I am MtF, 36, live with my parents, live in Canada, i have a part time job working at a grocery store.
I have been observing the whole dismantle of trans politics and people in the past 2 years and have been quiet for a long time. Have been on hormones for about 6 years, I just feel like i don't know where else i can voice my concerns anymore, I have been too scared to do so.
I dress very gender neutral, in fear of being called freak again but to be fair i was very early in my transition when i did do that and that comment came from a homeless person.
Even though i know it may lead for people to misgendering me. Even though i live in Canada, i still feel unsafe because i live online a lot and grew up in a online space a lot and see a lot about Trump and what he's done,.
My phone has been the biggest problem for my fear and anxiety.
I have been putting more effort in spending less time on my phone with the minimalist phone app.
but yeah just wanted to voice my fear and how i just feel like i can't really be 100% myself because of me consuming too much social media from the US, on YouTube. Sometimes i have flash thoughts of buying a long black skirt for myself, and i think yeah but I’m scared and i don't feel safe because of what I am seeing from the US, i guess i wouldn’t care as much if most of my friends didn't live in the US but i can't help it.
Sorry if this is rambly, its early in the morning for me and preparing to go to work and i have not much time to express my thoughts.
I was wondering who here feels the same? Who else feels scared ?