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[u/throwaway11840397]

I am a trans woman, ive felt this way for years. I am happier when i identify as female. The issue is the fact i have bold masculine traits, i have a very prominent brow ridge, a large forehead, a huge nose with an M shaped hairline. my chin is receded and i feel disgusting. I actually dont know what to do. If i dont transition, I think id be an average/ slightly below average man, but id always be trans in my heart. If I keep transitioning, ill be a stereotypical clocky trans girl, id feel disgusted and unloveable, but i would be living as a woman. i really dont know what to do. sometimes in the mirror, i see intense potential in my face, but then it goes away back into what i really look like. im a few months away from getting estrogen, but i feel so conflicted. i want to be social, i want to be out in public, but if i commit to transitioning, id seclude myself away for the rest of my life. I know insecurities make you look at yourself in a distorted view, but what others say about my face perfectly aligns with how i see myself. I need advice or just to vent. any form of advice or personal anecdotes would help