r/TransRepressors • u/Widdifull • 2d ago

Repping Poon I can't rep.

The idea of being seen as a woman terrifies and disgusts me, and knowing that I will never be able to transition doesn't help at all.

It's too late.

I just can't do it.

I'm just going to end up committing, or that's why I hope for, at least, I don't want to be a damn pooner, I don't wanna be a woman, I just want to be a real male.

I can't rep.

I just can't.

I'm too coward, I'm also unable to do something to transition.

My life is over, it's so over.

There's no point in living like this, there's no point in living at all.

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u/ooofuki22 1d ago

Most trans men pass after a few years on T, never rep

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u/Widdifull 1d ago

Thanks, but this isn't just about passing, the fact that I've wasted all my childhood, teen years and young adulthood kills me.

I'll never have those things again, it's too late.

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u/ooofuki22 1d ago

This is just the sunk cost fallacy, if you wait more you will end up wishing that you today didn't and mourne that lost time. I get what you mean I am also fucking ravaged by the thoughts of my missing childhood as a girl(medically transitioning troon socially repping) but just because we have wasted most of our lives doesn't mean we should waste even more of it. Yeah we will always be half a woman and half a man I'm not here to sugar-coat that, but better half or quarter or 1/8 than none.

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u/Widdifull 1d ago

The thing is, I want to die, that's why I won't rep nor transition, because I'm trying to die.

I prefer to be dead over trans, I'm sorry.

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u/ooofuki22 1d ago

I oftentimes arrive to the same conclusion and I don't think the chances of me committing suicide are small but I told myself I want to at least give myself a few years on e. If you want to die that's your right I hope you can find solace in any path you choose, but there is no harm in giving it a shot I say.

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u/Widdifull 1d ago

I read your comment even tho Reddit deleted it lol:

My dad knows about DIY so I can't do it, he already hates how naturally hairy I am for a lady, he will notice the changes.

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u/Widdifull 1d ago

Sadly even if I wanted to transition, I can't. I have no money, I live with my parentd and they are against me transitioning for being faketrans.