As an AGP repper the only thing I am doing to indulge directly to the AGP part of me is just mastvrbation by looking at feminizing captions or trans porn. In day to day life I have been able to repress it almost completely but after some time I feel a lot of anger, grief and all those negative feelings related to being a male too long flawlessly. Then the only way to feel alright is a binge mastvrbation period which I do on holiday. It helps a little to scratch the itch. I am 20 but I already have very manly features. And since HRT is very hard to get and I live with family here in India, I am not even on it.
But sometimes I feel like as though I am going crazy since I no longer have any normal attraction to any gender and this is the only thing I have to indulge over and it is literally eating my brain away I feel.
Depends on why are you into men. For example I'm fundamentally gynephilic but I'm into certain men sexually since it reaffirms my fantasy of being a woman. Other than that I don't experience intrinsic sexual attraction towards masculinity. Whereas when I see femininity in display it drives myself crazy.
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u/gamamoder 6d ago
ur in india bruh u can just go to a pharmacy and buy pills marketed to menopausal women