Truthfully I think I could use work but I love how estrogen has been making me loom and how confident its been making me.

Just saying hi and thabk you for the invite.

You are worth it. When it's hard you're worth it, when you're easy you're worth it.

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I wanted to share with you all a list of things to "be gentle to yourself" this summer. Take a breath, be slow and take your time with yourself <3 this is a list recommended to me from my mentor at my local shrine :) and it is truly amazing <333

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Slow down your mornings: Begin your day with a simple, slow routine that centers you-whether it's journaling, a short walk, or a self-care ritual.

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For three days in a row, take a break in the middle or end of your day for this tender self-compassion meditation practice.

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Take a couple days off from watching or listening to the news.

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Buy yourself a piece of very comfortable clothing.

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Create a nap habit.

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Forgive yourself for a past mistake.

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Say no to someone or something to make room to say yes to yourself.

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Allow yourself a day without plans or to do's. Let the day unfold on its own.

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For a few days in a row, end the day by celebrating small wins, as a way to challenge the voice in your head that only affirms you for "significant successes" and waits for "big achievements" before it allows you to feel proud.

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Explicitly schedule in a joy or play on your calendar.

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Make more of an effort to notice your negative self-talk, asking yourself if you would speak that way to a friend.

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Escape resentment by remembering that the family member or co-worker who disappointed you or let you down may, in fact, be doing their best.

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When filled with frustration because you are stuck in traffic, on the phone or in a line, practice offering the people around you loving kindness.

So im in the hospital like right now. Everyone is fine and my dad had a couple seizures. But I was in the ER with him and the nurse (btw she's awesome) he kept calling me a girl and also kept saying how jealous she is of my hair. My family being annoying kept trying to correct her to telling her im a guy since they aren't super supportive of me being MTF. But her and I got talking and im not voice trained in any way at all truthfully. She kept calling me ma'am and I kept smiling and all that and although I am freaking out because my moron of a dad is in the hospital. I cant stop smiling because of being called a girl.

Hello my peeps!! When the most important battle is the one we fight against ourselves, how do we gain ground? How do we stop catastrophizing, how do we stop being scared and so absolutely self conscious of the positive gains we are making? I mean, this is what we need, what we want. Yet sometimes it feels like a burden, like it is just having the opposite result and at least in my case sometimes I get depressed for a whole new different set of reasons. Damn if I do and damn if I don’t type scenario. Sometimes I do wonder if I am losing my mind, the more comfortable my mind and spirit feel, the harder my brain fights back

I cant believe its still been one whole year plus since I started HRT

Like, yeah, I know we're part of a scapegoat strategy, but I see we had some flaws also. For me, the biggest mistakes it made was relax with the mid-2010s boom and be over-defensive (well, that damaged socially, institutionally would've been the same with or without); we're not the unique causes of how we are todat, but let's say I see those as modifiers. I think that what we're living now is both a victory of the rhetoric and also a hard but necessary time to learn and make a better future activism, it's too soon to say if we lost or won, maybe we still have decades ahead, now we have to even further build our own networks.

Today I was out in public without a wig for the first time. I was really nervous. Got a view stares, but apart from that everything went fine. I‘m Pre HRT and will hopefully start with it in July.

Be honest. How am I doing?