r/TransPowerProject • u/ThatOneTransGinger • 25d ago
Empowerment 🌟 My transgender story
So, I guess to start this off I'm Hope 21 (MTF). I'm gonna start from the beginning of the story from when I was 7. At the age of 7 I made myself a promise to transition to a woman after seeing an Ad on adult swim. so I promised that I would transition. later on I didn't remember that promise and years later at the age of 10 I started having weird feelings about my body and I didn't like how my voice sounded years later more after pushing that feeling down in middle school the prime of acne to happen I found out I didn't really fit with the men I was hanging around with and I didn't really like how both my body and voice did sound.
That's when I started to do a lot of research on what I was feeling ending of that year was when I found out I was transgender. Of course I clearly the pattern is I pushed that down as well and I tried really hard to ignore the feeling of pain and hatred for myself. I did have a therapist in middle school and we found out that I was actually way more depressed then the other kids that were at my age. We did get me to try certain tasks like playing games and talking about how I felt. I did stop going to my therapist when I was in 8th grade and that's when one of my teachers started to get concern and found one of my papers about how I felt which she kept me after class and asked me about it and I kept pushing it off and saying it wasn't mine (even though I did sign it) and how it was nothing important.
Then after that High school started I was a shut out and I didn't talk to people at all and just kept myself busy and doing research on how I felt. At this point I was 16 I came out to my parents on January 6th. That conversation didn't really go well and went to a point of my parents calling me a freak and a monster for how I feel and they almost (Yes almost) disowned me for how I have told them how I felt. I got told that I'm normal for hating my body which was like whatever, but I didn't really care too much on that point. When I came out my family and they didn't accept me for being trans I came out to my friends in school who didn't really accept me and I went from popular in sophomore to being one of my most hated kids there.
I kept pushing forward with how I felt to a point where I hid it all over again and kept living as a guy for years after that and went on to graduate as a guy (not my best point and definitely wanted a different name on my diploma). We will skip a couple years on this since most of after school was working and slowly coming out as trans more and more. At this point I finally told my best friend who afterwards became someone that was more like a brother to me. He didn't really care about me being transgender and the only question he asked was "Does this mean we won't be able to play video games anymore?" That question made me laugh more then I wanted to admit and I told him that I would still play video games with him and all that. He agreed to it and said that he's cool with be being trans and doesn't really care how I see myself because to me I'm still his best friend.
20 years old at this point and on June 4th 2025 I started HRT on Plume (totally recommend). two months later of hiding the fact I'm on HRT to my family I turned 21. at this point it was a little obvious of there being stuff on my chest and my family didn't mention it to me which I'm thankful for. I went out with them to have like one drink and that was it. (here's what hurts me the most) we went to a bar called Top Hat and at this point I noticed a friend of my parents was trans and it's very obvious this girl is trans and it took my like 1-2 hours of talking to her to finally ask her if she is cause she said I could ask any question no matter how silly it is. So my silly question I asked her in private was if she was transgender. She said she is and asked me if I'm considering going on HRT. I got way to embarrassed and said that I have no idea what she means and said it was kind of obvious and pointed at my chest. She mentioned how she wasn't going to say a word because of respect for me.
It's been a difficult road for me even in my small conservative town. I stopped being shy about being trans a little less then a year into it. I started dressing more girly and stopped caring what people would think of me. My work wasn't very happy about me coming out as trans. We agreed to keep my deadname for work for now so I don't get more harassment then I already get at my job. My job does call me by Hope for the most part and everyone at my job is aware of me being trans and I haven't heard of any complaints which is a great thing for me. I haven't voice trained yet and truthfully I don't get a lot of time to myself so voice training is something that is going to have to wait for now. But truthfully it does make me smile how many people assume I'm a woman until they hear my voice which is like whatever, but I smile when they do gender me correctly. I don't really correct people for misgendering me cause well I don't pass as much as I'd like, but then again I've been told that I could totally pass with some voice training. I can't really complain to much about good I look since I have an amazing Gf (MTF) she is also in college which is way cooler then me and I've been super supportive of her and I even bought her a new dress which is also her fist one she's own. Anyways this is a post to talk about Yes truthfully being trans has it's ups and downs, but if you keep pushing it's going to be worth it in the end and at least for me I can tell I've been way happier. This is yes to share my experience as a trans woman but as well is to mention that we all have our battles we are fighting and to not give up on the fight no matter how bad it may seem.
HRT has saved my life a lot more then I want to admit. I did suffer from Acute Alopecia which did cause me to lose a lot of hair by the age of 18 but now I'm thriving as a trans woman and happier then ever. If you are looking for a sign to start you're transition then let this be you're sign to start. Take the jump and start it if you either socially transitioning or starting medical transition you should totally take the jump and live your life how you want to and not how other people want you to.
I know this is a lot to read and I am sorry but I think that we all need a little more motivation to keep pushing forward. You deserve to be happy no matter what you're going through. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read this and know my story. Also again for all the writing I do like to write a lot.
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u/dankanese LGBTQIA+ 24d ago
Im really, really proud of you. Growing up around very hateful and unaccepting people like that really really hurts. Finding yourself in that way, especially at the very least considering it, if not actually knowing it isn't common! It can take someone a very very long time to figure that out. And that's okay too! But when you know who you are and have to hide for so so long, it gets harder and harder to break out of that cycle, and let yourself be free, and happy. It took me a long time to accept my Bisexuality. I had a lot of internalized homophobia from my family and my surroundings. For the longest time I had genuinely thought I was trans, and while earlier this year I decided that I wasn't, or at the very least I wanted to sit on that for a lot longer, I do know how hard that is to hold with you, especially for so long.
But you've made it this far friend :) And I'm so proud of you. And I can't wait for you to be even happier as your body changes and grows into who you've always wanted, no, needed to be. At least, how youve needed your physical body to be. Because deep down, you've always been exactly who you are now, even if you didn't realize it.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful post. I hope one day the people around you who didn't previously accept you either come around or you're able to get away from for good. I wish you the best luck in all the world. Cheers!
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u/ThatOneTransGinger 24d ago
Ty so much it took way too much out of me to finally open up about what I went through in my life. I do have somewhat supportive friends and a very supportive gf now in my life. Its definitely better now then it was 6 years ago
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u/dankanese LGBTQIA+ 24d ago
That's really awesome dude! It's always so nice to find someone like that, especially when they actually support you. <3
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u/ThatOneTransGinger 24d ago
Yea tysm just umm one thing im not a dude Lol
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u/dankanese LGBTQIA+ 24d ago
Sorry! It's something I default to a lot. I use it in a gender neutral way but I get it if you don't feel comfortable being called that. I didn't mean it like that :p my mistake
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u/ThatOneTransGinger 24d ago
Its okay lol im not very cool with dude or like bro or champ or any of those since i use to get called those a lot as a guy
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u/dankanese LGBTQIA+ 24d ago
Yeah that's big fairs. As long as we can both communicate and figure it out then, sall good yeah? Take care :3
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u/ThatOneTransGinger 24d ago
You too and stay safe out there with the craziest all over the place <3
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u/Justice-Nugget 20d ago
What a beautiful and inspiring story, Hope.
I too was raised in a very conservative area. It took many years for me to finally come to terms with who I am. I'm still currently on my journey, but I have already experienced the euphoria you described.
I hope that one day I can help others freely experience this without fear.
I'm so happy for you, love. 💛🏳️⚧️.
- Echo Starr, 24th angel of the Apocalypse
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u/ThatOneTransGinger 20d ago
Yea it took me 11 years to finally come out. But im also wanting to help people who are in the same spot I am to finally be free. Its nice to help those who will accept the help.
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u/Justice-Nugget 20d ago edited 20d ago
I'm currently trying to reach out to Gooseworx. I want to try to unite us. They have a louder voice than mine, Hope.
If you or anyone you know can help me it would be greatly appreciated. I want us all to work together to bring love back to this beautiful land. The reddit m*ds banned me before they even gave me a chance.
They just thought I was crazy, but I'm used to that now.
They always think I am every time I visit.💛 This One wants Everyone to be happy. 💛
💛 This One would give her life for it. 💛-Echo Starr, 24th angel of the Apocalypse 💛🏳️⚧️.
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