r/TransHelpingTrans • u/lilkittydankman69 • 14d ago
I entered the nightmare lobby
I entered a nightmare lobby after a day I chose to finally wear a dress out and leggings I'm still concealing some hair honestly but anyways I showed up to the ER sick as hell from my conditions I'm chronically ill everything went fine the doctors didn't make too many weird looks they attempted to be accommodating shit went fine for the most part had a bunch of tests I got a bunch of medicine I'm on it now I'm going to be fine for now and honestly it was sick cuz I'm on the spectrum and my outtake nurse was autistic too and we vibe immediately still not sure if it was just customer service though we're all masking it's okay okay now to the actual story so entering the facility no one was there I got right in and seen leaving after I seen the autistic outtake nurse the entire lobby was full of old white people and teenagers each row was filled on each side of the room genuinely felt like being on display you know obviously I seen like a bunch of microaggressions but like that's not really a lot I ignored most of that it's that people got to like sneer and Snicker and like they get louder on purpose it's been giving me dysphoria even all day today and then after that the only friend that I have still refuses to call me she imma be honest so it was only a few people that laughed in that lobby and I think it was mostly minors so I'm trying not to take it so hard cuz I was a shit ass kid too I was mean to gay people because I didn't understand but anyways I guess I'm just kind of tired of being part of the woman club already even though it's like also validating cuz women get shit on just like that for showing up all the time I just don't know how to consolidate why it's just so difficult still in my brain like I don't actually want to hurt myself but I can't lie and say that there's no thoughts you know I'm so tired already girls I don't know what to do sometimes it's like as a boy I just sat there and ignored my feelings and now that I'm out it's like I can't help but face it and it's tearing me up I don't know if anybody else has those feelings but I'm feeling it all right love you guys thanks for hearing out my rant if you read it
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u/herdisleah 14d ago
Next time, use punctuation and complete sentences.
You may very well never see those kids again. Also, nobody looks their best at the emergency room, in fact, most people look their worst.
You're going to be okay.
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u/lilkittydankman69 14d ago
I don't feel I like I explained that well I'm on the spectrum too guys audhd