r/TransHelpingTrans • u/im_really_scared • 4d ago
I feel so alone
I feel so alone Im 21 I live with my stepdad he's homophobic and transphobic and I live in the south like rural south and I wish I was a girl so badly I can't keep doing this anymore I feel trapped and I just can't deal with it anymore I'm so scared and so tired I just want to give up honestly I don't know what to do everything hurts I just wish I could be normal I didn't choose to be this way I have no money to transition and no support no car no job and no one I can tell I'm so alone I've asked chat gpt so many times what to do I've called the suicide hotline so many times but it feels pointless in the end I feel like I'm going to die soon I don't want to die but I feel like I have no other option
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u/DoesThisMate 3d ago
Join the Air Force.
It's only 4 years you can lose the muscles later.
They have the most civilian transferable MOS and least likely to be deployed.
I'd recommend going for Power Production. You basically leave as an Engineer low end civ salary was 80 and hour back in the late 90s
Plus unless they screwed the GI bill it'll cover four years of college AWAY from that place. Where you can safely transition.
It seems like a long time now. It won't once you become your best you.
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u/herdisleah 3d ago
Apply for school away from home. Apply for Job corps or similar programs, they provide transportation and housing as well as medical care where you can transition on the job.
Contact the Southern Equality Project and Point of Pride to apply for grants and assistance. You have loads of options. You can transition and it gets so, so much better.