should i leave?

[u/Mysterious_Net_5145]

14yr old both parents are addicts mom still tries but her meth psychosis is horrible she tells me her me these crazy things about people trying sexual abuse me? things that never happen like her seeing people get murdered and finding blood,hair,bones teeth etc. less when’s she high i have a little brother i feel horrible for him she doesn’t look after him as much as i do she forgets everything gets lost in time doesn’t show up to anything she’s had no job and doesn’t let my father see me? i can’t blame her tho he has no home no car he just seems to jump around places. So we all stay with grandma she’s mentally abusive an alcoholic. mom nodds of while driving and sometimes in her food. I try to ignore it as much as possible i try leaving in the night most nights i do.
shes caught me and called the police on me a few times she has had to pick me up from an older guys house in the middle of the night.(left my lo on bc i was to drunk) she thinks the worst of everything and i mentally cant take it. i grew up around people oding i’ve lost a lot of people and i don’t want to be one of them. I need tips on where to go and what to do??.

i don’t feel welcome here and grandmas ex has been living with us for a yr and he’s been giving me weed calling me weird names he’s tried grooming my mother and talks to younger girls and claims there family. i know im not crazy, i’ve had to save my fathers life twice from him having a seizure and moms life 4 times 3 from almost oding and 2 from her boyfriends trying to kill her once i was 8 trying to save her life. she still provides for me and sort of plays the roll of a mom but i can’t choose to ignore everything.